Planning vacation, looking forward to it. Spotting continues. Feeling weird, taking naps, not sure the triphasil is working, or my body has changed. Too early for menopausal type things, right? Miles is sleeping next to me, he will be out of school next Tuesday. Wow, I am still processing that he will be a 3rd grader. Thought about having a gurl ( Read more... )

Dream: In Kmart parking lot I think, Prince and his band/posse were there getting down, doing spins on the concrete, Prince in a big purple truck and me in a truck too. Princes cat got loose and I went looking for him.

All I can do right now is write about it. Try to flush these toxins from my body and soul. I ( Read more... )

Sitting here after school. Clean house, clean bed, Miles has a friend over. He is so unlike Miles it's interesting to watch him. I am selfish in that I can't wait for Miles to have Miles for my own again. To smell his hair, clean sweat and a familiarity. The kitten as a metaphor for how out of control Sams life is. We have this cat, a foster cat, ( Read more... )

Saturday night Brian finished the wood floors in the living room, hooray. Adds depth and ( Read more... )

Im sorry but its perfect here, a light breeze blowing from the fan, central air, my laptop happily perched on the wooden lap desk, Miles making peaceful sleeping noises wrapped in cottony goodness, in my safe house with the people and animals that perplex and love me. I cant ask for more but sometimes I do. Miles acted bad in Home Depot and I ( Read more... )

Going out on a date tonight with Marc. He seems to be kind of quirky, we'll see how it goes. Im writing with my eyes closed. Just took a nap, a drool on the pillow and not really fall into deep sleep kind of thing. My tulips have already bloomed and are now starting their death march. They are beautiful. Going to Cedar Point tomorrow with the ( Read more... )

Time is going by fast, end of semester, planting, painting, alot of work. Its hot in here, 82, I feel ok, Zilla has been sleeping on her bed at the end of my bed and I think she is chasing away the bad dreams. She is a great protector, maybe a bit too good. When Brian smacked my rear today she hopped up as if to say, "What the fuck are you doing ( Read more... )

Went and saw Bridget Jones's diary' there is a little Bridget Jones in all of us. Renee Z. didnt look fat, she looked normal, healthy. Her thighs muscular. A gurl sitting next to me said something about John Cusacks part in 'Say Anything' - I think, Lloyd Dobbler ( Read more... )

Dreams, where would we be without them? Two nights of dreams about, hold your gasps of air, Eminem. He was misunderstood and damnit I loved him. Even after he went off on tour and brought back an angry groupie. Then fade to a dream about being at Disneyworld with Sam, they kept having this Star Wars parade where you would hear the Darth Vader ( Read more... )