I think Dad has permanently moved out of the house. This makes me sad and yet.. a little joyful too. I think with Dad out of the picture now, i can grow a little closer to Mom. Our relationship isn't a bag full of kittens and rainbows at the moment, but she's all i've got right now. I'll miss Dad though. Now that I know he's not coming back, the ( Read more... )

( If you hate the taste of wine, why do you drink it until you're blind? )

I don't even know what to say anymore. I don't see any point in even trying to update about my family life. How long has it been? 3... maybe 4 months? Life without Jeff... it doesn't even seem like the life I used to have. It's like somebody ripped away my old life and handed me a new one saying, "Here, have a go with this one." I'm at a loss for ( Read more... )

rest in peace, dear Jeffrey.

Dad is gone yet again, Mom's black eye is healing nicely, and Jeff had the energy to eat dinner with us while we all had a nice conversation about current events. Life sure is more pleasant when my dad is out of the house. Without him being here, I can actually picture me, mom, and jeff living a some-what normal life ( Read more... )

my father hit me. my own flesh and blood hit me today. my mother doesn't even care. she was crouched in the corner and sobbing the entire time. this "family" is getting worse each passing day. when will mom realize that we need to get out of here before things get TOO out of hand? when will it be engraved in my dad's head that all of our lives are ( Read more... )

i hate my life. i wish i could disappear from the face of the earth.

i know it's been a long time since my last post, i've just been so caught up in my own problems that i can hardly seem to function ( Read more... )

Today was a miserable day. Dad hasn't come home for a quite a few weeks now. I'm beginning to think that he will never come home, that the life without my father i've been dreading will come true. i know things aren't much happier when he is here, but on the rare occasions when he wasn't drunk, we connected so well on a personal level. now he's ( Read more... )

this is going to be a first for me, but in the last week i haven't been my usual sulky depressed self. Looking back at old photos is sure nostalgic, but it's also lifting up my spirits. seeing my family full of smiles made me remember that it's possible for things to go back to that way again, right? nothing is ever impossible. yea my father is a ( Read more... )