i need to get the fuck out of the house. havent done anything in like a month, if not more. apathy is my enemy and boredom is its weapon? if that makes any sense. Eh, what can i say, days go by and i hardly notice anymore. Time for a drive

Don't pull me back in ( Read more... )

Holding my breath ( Read more... )

Eh, not to much to update but i figured its been a while. Lets see i have definitivly confirmed that clubs are not my thing, damn duo-chan for being able to drag my ass to them. Although the bribe she offered was funny, a lapdance, however i chose to be a gentleman and not take the offer seriously, tempting as it was grin. Thats pretty much all ive ( Read more... )

I wouldnt say im realizing im pushing everyone away, but that i can actually admit it to myself and others. I know that this isnt good, but i still cant shake the apathy and sadness and interact with people. Need an answer but dont know the question savi ( Read more... )

Rules ( Read more... )

Tried to let go, paint myself a better man ( Read more... )

Meh, i was very much right, jessica was definitly using me for that week. I can almost taste the bitterness. And much respect has been lost. So soon after the dagger was pulled out and forgiveness was granted...... to both parties. For the first time in a long time i am considering a violent action, and it scares me. But i digress, the one involved ( Read more... )

Meh, jessica is no longer speaking to me apparently, havent heard from her in more than a week. So looks like ive let myself be played. Bah. Me and dani are no longer speaking. I didnt talk to her for a week and she started sending me hateful messages. In the second one she made it quite clear i would have to crawl on my knees to ever associate ( Read more... )

Fuck the lies, fuck the bullshit, fuck the drama, fuck the mindgames, fuck the playing with my head,fuck the playing with my heart, fuck the suppossed openess, fuck the backstabbing, fuck the apologies, fuck my generiosty, fuck my kindess, fuck my forgiveness, fuck my understanding, fuck my mind, fuck my heart, fuck my soul, fuck love, fuck my ( Read more... )