hey, this is lizz and this is probably the hardest entry i will ever have to write, yesterday morning at 5:18 jesi called me to tell me that Jason passed away. He held on for two days after they took out the venhilation tube, and now he's gone....this has got to be the hardest thing in the world for anyone to go through and i know that they are ( Read more... )

Jason,
I love you. I'm sorry you never got a real chance at life but you're strong and I know you'll be ok. And don't worry about me and daddy, we'll be ok too.
Yes, we will miss you but you will be in our hearts forever. We love you so much. All I want is what's best for you. No pain, no suffering and no frustration. You will be in a better ( Read more... )

It looks like this is the end of the road for my little guy. This is the hardest thing I have ever had to go thru in life and nobody in this world can say they know how I feel b/c they dont. After the doctor pulled his breathing tube out he gave him about an hour b4 he would pass on. Well its now been about 2hrs and after 5x the amount of morphene ( Read more... )

Well Jason came home for a week and has now ended up back in the hospital. I had a total nervous break down and had to go to the ER. They gave me some meds but I may have to be committed if I get worse. I just cant deal with everything that is goin on in my life. Plus on top of all the bad feelings Im having, I feel like Lizz either dont like me or ( Read more... )

hey everybody this is Lizz, jesi asked me to come on here and change her journal around and i just wanted to let you all know too that it is changed and everything. you need to check it out. Please continue to pray for jesi, ricky, and jason....please. thank you all and i know she thanks you too, thats all i really have to say.

On Saturday Jan. 14th Jason turned completely blue and quit breathing. I gave him CPR with an oxygen bag and my mom called 911. He was rushed via ambulance to Hackley where they watched his vitals and sent him home.

Sunday night his oxygen level dropped again and he started to turn blue. Once again I gave him CPR and had my mom call 911. From ( Read more... )

Ok so today started out pretty shitty, my car decided to break so now my exhaust is really super loud and ricki screwed up laundry and jason doesnt feel good, so i totally thought the rest of the night would so suck UNTIL i remembered that today was Christina's xmas party.

It was a blast!! It was really great to see all the girls. I have missed ( Read more... )

Well last night was alright. Lizz and I hung out for a couple of hours with Kendra but we felt really out of place so we decided to leave. I mean we had fun sort of but the only one who really acknoledged us was Kendra. After we left I went home and called lizz and talked til my phone died. Than at like 3am Ricki's friend Kory called so I ended up ( Read more... )

So tonight, Me, Lizz and Melissa all went out and went bowling together. It was cool but it seemed like we were all tired so we sucked hard core lol. Not that we dont anyways but yeah. Than I got into GH at like 11:30pm and sorry that I didnt call you Christina but it was late :( Maybe we can all get over ourselves and do something together ( Read more... )

Ok so here's the thing...a lot of you keep saying how you want to hang out and shit with me but when you all get together do I get a phone call??? Hmmm....no. Yeah Im aware of the fact that the phone goes both ways but for one I dont have long distance (so Im sorry to danielle, I still love you and miss you) and for two I dont have like half ur ( Read more... )