Well its been awhile since I last updated. Since then Ive been put on meds and I work two jobs b/c we're super ass poor. Im tired and still depressed. I thought that Jason's death was supposed to get easier and it just seems to be getting harder. I dunno...but enough there. I just wanted everyone to know Im still around, I just dont have much time ( Read more... )

I hate when ppl post lyrics but this is totally the song for me right now. I keep wondering if the pain will ever go away.
And Jen I added u to my msn.

"Who you'd be today" Kenny Chesney

Sunny days seem to hurt the most ( Read more... )

Well this is proally going to turn into another sleepless night. I dont know if its nerves or what but Im nervous over my interview at Kohls tomorrow and the drug test b/c of my prescriptions and I just cant stop missing my family.

Life just doesnt seem to be getting any better but nothing can get worse I guess. I dunno....have you ever hurt so ( Read more... )

jesi asked me to put these pics on here for her so that is what i am doing....


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Im not typing this for suport or for sympathy or any of that shit...I just got some things that i need to type out.

I just cant seem to get over my family's death. Especially my son. I hate fuckin hurting so damn bad. I cant fuckin take it anymore. I mean after everyone is in bed and Im up doin nothing all I can do is think and thinking is really ( Read more... )

I stole this from Bree...

If you are reading this, even if we don't talk that often, post a comment of a memory of you and me - good or bad. When you are finished, post this on your livejournal and be surprised by what people remember about you.

Well today started out ok. Me and Lizz went and filled out like 7 apps today and turned them back in. Hopefully I can pass a drug test. I take a controlled substance (narcotic) to help me deal with whats goin on and I have a script I just dont want that to affect me getting a job. That would suck.

After I hung out with Lizz, I went to my aunts ( Read more... )

On Saturday Feb. 25, what would have been Jason's 8mnth bday, my Aunt Mashelle passed away at Mercy Hospital. This is the third person I have lost this month. I break down almost everyday. Today was the worst b/c for some reason I just couldnt stop crying. Tomorrow is the funeral and I just really dont want to go. Im tired, emotionally and ( Read more... )

God Laura could you be more fucking stupid?? I mean honestly, you bitch all the fucking time about NOTHING. I have lost my son, my cousin and my aunt in three weeks. TRY LIVING MY FUCKING LIFE!! You fucking bitched that all you wanted to do was come home and then you fucking bitch that youre sick of being home. MAKE UP UR FUCKIN MIND!! At least you ( Read more... )

As you all know, my son passed away followed by my cousin. I have posted the sites to their obituaries. This is not really for you guys but for me so I can keep looking back at them.

Jason A. Schwing ( Read more... )