Surrounded by mutated pigs everyday, they rush to the trough, eager for their bits of offal, Mcdonalds is making a mint off of abject laziness, stupidity, and the state of general apathy that has blanketed the majority of our population. I can't reconcile myself to it, I cant seem to want it bad enough. Wanting to fit in yet unwilling to bend to ( Read more... )

Keep your things in a place meant to hide
But I know theyre there somewhere
And I know thats where youll go tonight
Ill be thrown over just like before
The white lady loves you more
Need a metal man just to pick up your feet
Its a long time since you cared enough for me to even be discrete
I know what this metal is for
The white lady loves you more
Im ( Read more... )

I havent written a post ina very long time, I guess I've just been immersed in my daily life to the point where it seems pointless to chronicle the mundane misadventures i happen to have. I am currently whacked on painkillers so that my wisdom teeth stop hurting. It is Good Friday, apparently it's the busiest day of the year at work. It's also ( Read more... )

I can almost remember who I really am, It's like my own name is just on the tip of my tongue, but not quite ready to be uttered.
Emotions if left alone will wither and die, planting new ones in their place can take a staedy gentle hand to nurture.

I dont know what to say or feel these days.

I am aware of my failings.

So I'm trying really hard not to have a complete emotional breakdown today. I started off this morning with a fight, I wont go into details of what happened, but I haven't been as hurt by somone as I was today since my mother left me when I was 7. I'm not using that reference to say "poor me" or to gain pity from anyone. It's just the most relevant ( Read more... )

dear someone listening in the shadows ( Read more... )

I dunno where I'm going in life right now, I think  i've decided to just coast along til i cant take anymore. I dont't have it so bad, I mean really, I can keep a roof over my head, I am fairly well fed (gained 10 lbs) and can somehow manage to afford to smoke, mostly ( Read more... )

Has anyone ver tried to be there for someone, and you know how to and what to do to be a support in a positive and helpful way but find yourself frustrated by other "so called" supports behaving in ways that they think are helpful but really just push their point of view on the matter onto the person and make them feel generally shitty about  what ( Read more... )

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jesus fuck why???

so yeah, lately i've been realizing that most of my quote unquote "friends"  love nothing more than to make themselves feel better by chewing me out in front of an audience or to say things that most people would expecta swift punch in the teeth for and then act like I'm the asshole for taking exception to it. I don't want to go out and party, I ( Read more... )