xKiSSxoFxiNFaMy: i know what i want to do when i grow up
xxstarscreamscow: wut
xKiSSxoFxiNFaMy: a FLUFFER
xxstarscreamscow: a fluffer?
xxstarscreamscow: wut now?
xKiSSxoFxiNFaMy: lol
xKiSSxoFxiNFaMy: it's a guy that gives head to a porn star to keep them hard during their "performances"

sometimes i get really paranoid that my parents are going to random pick up my journal one day while it's sitting in my room or on the kitchen table while i'm downstairs and they'll read through all these nothings that i write in there, and i'll feel voilated. i have an urge to just write something like "OMG me and tyler had sex yesterday... and i ( Read more... )

today was one of those days that seem to last forever in an odd sort of way. school was... school. i have a lot of things turning around in my head, and not quite enough time get it out with my system with anyone. this entry might turn out to be a load of crap, but i don't feel like trying to go back to erase the parts that make it that way. i' ( Read more... )

i miss heather so much.

i honestly didn't think it would affect me so much because we haven't been really [steadily] close for a LONG time... but it's just like everything left with her. a part of me died when she left... a part in a lot of us. and filling that void is really complicated right now.
most of you will have no idea what i'm talking ( Read more... )

"It's like a fucking drug deal
I'm sitting here waiting
I'm calling you back
and you won't call me back
and it's fucked up, but at the same timeit just made me want you even worse.

For awhile I was cleaner than now
Then I started to destroy myself
With things that I love now the things that I hate
Until it finally broke me

You're so crazy [3x]
Enough in a ( Read more... )

"i'd rather waste some time with you.."

You will live in House.
You will drive a blue cougar.
You will marry tyler and have 2 kids.
You will be a slut in Minnesota.

haha... www.playmash.com

it's so up up up up up up up up then DOWN. crash. burn. desolve into this nothing that for some reason is still pulling at you, pulling you under..

there's no words to describe this. to describe me, to the full extent, however i will state that this has been a different form of me. i need to reach that place again, and i don't see it happening. ( Read more... )

somehow, everything that's been going on doesn't seem real whatsoever. i'm not sure why this is, or how i could convince myself of it.

it's funny how we always remember the best in these vivid memories of such things that wouldn't normally be considered memorable, but to us it's the top of the mountain and we wish we could've reached that point again in the future. everything is good when you remember it like that, you just have to understand that you [accidentally] leave out ( Read more... )