Here it is another day in my life... I cry myself to sleep with no one to comfort me... I get used to the yelling, and I'm pretending it soothes me, so I don't get all heated up and angry... My life is slowly coming together, but still has many loose ends that are beginning to fray and unravel... Pretty soon, my sheild will let me down, and I will ( Read more... )

Hey all, sorry I haven't written on here lately... Things have been so busy and I finally got a new computer... Its great... Talena and I are doing so well... Its been like 9 months now... I never thought I could be happier... Work is going well... I'm thinking of going back to school... We're moving out come April, into a nicer, more homey ( Read more... )

Just a quick hello before I go back to bed... LoL... Need some more sleep before work... Talena just left for school... I miss her already... I am so proud of her, trying to get her GED and all... I really hope things work out for her...

BABY, I LOVE YOU...

Ouch... My tummy hurts... :(

I dunno why I am the way I am... Most everyone knows what I mean... I get REALLY and waaay jealous sometimes, and its not intentional... Yea, I was jealous and sometimes, now and then, I will still get the slightest bit... But I want to apologize and let everyone know that I am sorry and I didn't mean to make such a big deal out of it... I just ( Read more... )

Blah, its like 3:00AM and I have to get up in a few hours and get ready for work... There is just a lot of stress on my chest, I think... Life seems so complicated at times, and sometimes, I think, why... Ya know?? Why does it have to be this hard, what is the reason for all these "tests" and things... Why is it that we have to see how far a person ( Read more... )

What are the odds that the few people who I can kind of, sort of, well probably completely blame for RUINING my life are now all trying to come back into the picture... I don't understand why things can't just be left alone and done with... Things that happened in the past need to stay there and its only for the better... What part of, "I HAVE A ( Read more... )

I'm sitting here, all alone... I don't get another day off until Tuesday... I had a few hours to kill before I had to go to work, and I'm all alone... Talena is out with her mom and her new friends.... Thats cool... :) I dunno... I'm kind of sadd, but not really... I dunno... She has this really cool friend now, and I still don't really have anyone ( Read more... )

Writing in here is starting to become a pain in my ass, LOL... I feel responisble to post every time I get on-line... It is a time saver though... Kills all the time I have while sitting at the library or whatever... Guess its cool though... At least its not something that I keep lying around for unwanted eyes to get into... Only the people I want ( Read more... )

How can you control your expressions, your emotions? You can't... If your feeling angry or sad, or whatever, how do you conceal that? I think the voices that I hear in my head are nothing but my emoitions and shit trying to escape... I need to find another way of ventalation... Writing doesnt seem to be all that helpful, because I can't get out ( Read more... )

God, why does life have to be so hard... I seriously think that no one understands me... I think what I need to do is take what I think and see and hear in my head and write it down, edit it, and sell it to a big production company and make a major movie out of it... You know how ppl love all that weird demented shit that grosses them out and keeps ( Read more... )