Strangely, tonight, I would have given anything to have been somewhere else. Ironically, it's not normally a place I'd consider going at all. I wish I had something self-destructive tonight, and I didn't get the chance.

I am now on an indefinate financial hiatus from WoW. We'll see how this goes.

That conversation was supposed to have helped.

It did no such thing.

Here's hoping the next few days lead to something more than just dead-end emotions. Like a satisfactory emotional grounding for me to start that first resolution.

My resolutions, as they come to mind ( Read more... )

I honestly don't know how this is going to end up. I'm looking at the whole thing, at convergences and divergences, at people and their relationships, and I have not the slightest clue where I'm going to be in a month, let alone five ( Read more... )

It's sobering, to realize what you really want, and to know you're never going to get it, and that you shouldn't even want it in the first place. It's terribly lonely to have found someone who can communicate with you on a level that you want in a lover, in a spouse, in everything, and to know that you'll never be able to achieve anything more than ( Read more... )

Lie together in our bed,
pull us closer, emotions fed.
Tell each other how we feel
mourn the fact that this ain't real.

Sun comes up, sleep eluded
My mind keeps spinning, I'm deluded.
Dreams come e'er more common now,
but I know...

They're not real.
I'm not that happy.
You're not here.
And you never will be.

"Andrew, are the boys home ( Read more... )

Wait, I've still got four weeks of this shit? Really.

Ugh. Want to buy ticket to NOT HERE.

/dance