Needless to say .. I have been to many Doctors Appts.. without much luck. They say I am crazy and Need to see a shrink, and a Neurologist.Hell if I know why. It makes me wonder, is everyone happy but me? Or have I really lost my mind? More or less the latter I am sure. Nevertheless i have to go . I might finish might not.. I need to ( Read more... )

breakfast.. what is it ( Read more... )

I have been so sick so very very sick. but i am coming around. It seems the clouds are starting to disapate around me fora change. Yes i still need my Gall blatter out of me to make most of the sickness go away. Yet its due to be taken out sometime in sept. so I keep you posted eh. On a good note I have been sober for a bit now about 10 ( Read more... )

Well where should I start??? I have had a relapse of sorts for about a month now. I have spent about 3500 on nothing but dope alone.. Now that I look back on my stupidy.. I was close to the brink of loosing my santiy .. Honestly, I need to relocate, yes I know it wont totally solve the problem but I think a new life in a new place with a new ( Read more... )

It seems that there might be a god afterall. I mean I have been flat ass broke and needed to pay some bills. Yet this morning i was thinking of ways to earn or make money "legally" and then Bam i get a check for 1218.00 this morning.. granted i spent 785 to my grandpap for my student loan.. and the rest is going to court fines, and other ( Read more... )

Well it started off decent minus the fact i didnt know where i was at or who was next to me.. but that soon fixed itself soon enough. Then it just drug on taking forever for the minutes to pass by most likely because i was somewhere i didnt wanna be. Nevertheless, My sister Plows a deer on the 4-lane... shes fine but the Car's Fucked. ( Read more... )

Well, I have had a shitty turn of events... since i last posted, I was in the hospital for a bit.. Found out what it was.. HEP C.. they say.. prety bad case.. Hell i didnt know I even had it.. I have taken a few weeks off of work to collect my strength and so on.. but I am feeling better everyday.. They also, found that my Gall Blatter ( Read more... )

I hate work! I am tired of getting up at 5 am to go trudge though a ditch full of mud,rocks, and water for seven dollars an hour. Fuck, it wouldn't matter if it was 15 dollars an hour i am just tired of working. I have felt this way for days now ever since i have been sick. I mean a few days back I felt this strange pain in my head, not like ( Read more... )

What can I say? I am in a shit sandwich and I am starting to rot! I had a good time last night even though it was wrong of me to feel this way. I went to visit my mother to the book store mall Cd place. shit like just hung out.. but everyone has the idea that I am taking this chic from her man.. I dunno am I ? doubtful.. Cause the ( Read more... )

Well, honestly I have been on a two week bender. I regret it then again i dont. Everyone thinks I am this big bad ole recovering addict. well that might be part of me but goddamnit thats not all i am about. I think i am a decent guy, fuck i do the small shit respect women and even fucking help little old ladys. Like it fucking matters anymore ( Read more... )