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not today
I dont know what to think of this winter. Pie and I love one another very much and I do hope that we work everything out---our love could have been so easy and perfect if we could just bend more for one another. Its almost there, its so close that to throw it all away would be so tragic and brutal. Perhaps we will have to throw our hands up and go ( Read more... ) -
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i miss my artsy life. i miss going to openings all the time and meeting strange ppl and having random conversations with them...i also miss painting and doing creative things myself. I have been so consumed with work and my life otherwise...cooking and taking care of things that i have not followed my truth much lately. sad i know. But im sure im ( Read more... ) -
men and money
What does one do with love when it conflicts with career choices?
It seems like the answer is obvious and easy--career right? Well sure it is, except that you feel empty without being able to be close to someone you love who is quite special after all. It seems like life never cuts anyone a break--no one can have everything they want for too long-- ( Read more... ) -
relationship overview
allo universe! C'est moi! Yes yes i have cheered up a bit. I fought with my boyfriend again last night--as usual. It seems to be a combination of passion and him not meeting my expectations. I guess the relationship may not end up being what i am ultimately looking for in a husband. I told him that last night. I explained to him that he really ( Read more... ) -
the catch or the cage?
i want to start living my life for me, not for men with expectations, not for boyfriends or friends or family members ( Read more... ) -
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I wonder why romantic relationships almost always begin to feel like dead weight that pushes toward the ground? I only had one experience that was spiritually uplifting. It had nothing to do with money or society, with tradition and expectation...instead we were simply ourselves and we spoke openly and loved deeply and enjoyed! That relationship ( Read more... ) -
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If we are in a relationship with very little responsibility and he tries to back out everytime he doesn't like something I do what does that mean? -
the past is still alive
I want to clear out the past from my life, from my mind. I do not want to forget it or disregard it but instead i want to pick up all of the fragments that I can compile and place then in small wooden drawers in a desk. I want to let go of the pain that I have caused others and which I felt. What else can be done? Yes you learn from pain and ( Read more... ) -
on an island of thought
i guess for no particular reason (other than the fact that my oblivious easy going nature controls every aspect of my life) I never really noticed how much the small encounters that we have with people, (esp friends) makes such a big difference in their lives. I cannot believe how important I am to some friends who's lives I was never really a big ( Read more... ) -
mistake
It seems to me that I have firstly allowed my romantic relationship to consume my entire life, and that I have secondly informed too many people of my personal woes, and as a result now the man who i love and i are either ( Read more... )