Its amazing to me that I love him despite my better judgment.
I have been told many times by various fortune tellers that i will never be rich but that i will be happy in marriage.
Is he this man who makes me so happy and fulfilled or am I yet to meet him?

I was unkind to him last night
and today I needed him so much-bad news in my life...and he was ( Read more... )

Society is a strange creation. We could all be living in peace amongst one another in nature--without all the misery of our daily grind, but no, we all force ourselves to deal with the heat, and the pressure and the get up and go. I could say that it makes me feel awful, but thats not the case. Instead I seem to be gifted with this sort of inner ( Read more... )

it is such a relief to be away from my normal houston life--from my family and my boyfriend, even my beloved doggie. Its just me and my friends here. I am so stressed out in houston, my life is a whirlwind that flies by me in 5 mins...this past week was 5 mins. I woke up at 4am and drove to san antonio in a rainstorm to make lots of money for my ( Read more... )

I love him so much that I have lost all control. I am a pile of flower petals in winter, I am lost in this consuming love. Is it supposed to be this way? Am I supposed to be paralyzed by loving him--totally afraid of losing him...desperate to keep this love alive? I want to confess my secrets to him I want to be like a new babe in his arms, I want ( Read more... )

im sick. there is no cure. just mild treatment. no im not dying just miserable. and i miss my teita.

its so unbelievable how much stress we are forced to endue in american culture but it is what it is and the only thing that one can do to escape it is to build something of their own. Anyway at least i have rhino and my artistic things that i do to de-stress, ironically when i am very stressed then i never want to do any of them ( Read more... )

I have to be frank about something. About my old loves which will never die in my heart.
I promised those whom I loved that our connection would last forever, and I meant it.
In my mind that only means that the love we had was meaningful and enduring.
It is beside the point that we are not together any longer, instead it is important to
note that we ( Read more... )

oddly, or maybe not so very oddly, I suddenly stop in the middle of events and think--this our life. These moments of laughter or emptiness driving from place to place--this is our life.

Dear Rhinoceros,

Why is life so confusing? Why does tasty stuff make me fat? And when are we going to have infinite funs at the beach again?

ns

So its finally real, I am allowing myself to love this man and grow closer to him, so much so that I may end up being his wife by the end of the year. Its amazing to me how we just knew. I have been the most confused and skeptical lover with every other man...there was always something. And although this one is not perfect he has just the right ( Read more... )