The love that I have for this new man is consuming, but about 10% of it is transitioning into something slightly more subtle and safe, something more real than the total fantasy that it has been. I am so happy...Im floating, floating across the great expanses of the universe in his arms ( Read more... )

its true. i am in love with a man whom i never expected would really be meaningful to me, at least not like this. If he were to ask me i would say yes...and i hardly know him. Secrets that take me ages to tell others i have already told him, dreams i share gradually after many months of love making i have openly confessed. I have not felt this way ( Read more... )

So I met this guy that i didnt think would end up making me feel the way I do. I am consumed with him and he is consumed with me (or so it seems). I cannot stop thinking about him and what a good lover he is and how much chemistry we have. He wont really admit it yet, its too soon, but I think he is falling in love with me and wants this ( Read more... )

Perhaps I should revert to my truth--accept who I really am? Or is that something i ought to continually deny? I want to be in love, I want to travel the world like a wanderer meeting poor simple people...do hand crafts with them, drink tea with them, learn about their lives. I am a combination of opposites in every sense. If I continue on this ( Read more... )

It seems to me that i have devoted way too much energy into men, relationships, dreaming about and making love. Love is a volatile thing, like rain during a storm...and life is already sort of a moving disaster, so the combination of the 2 is like begging for complications. It also seems to me that I have a knack for impossible relationships. I ( Read more... )

Last night was fun. I hung out with an old friend of mine who is into making films and just relaxed and gentlemanly. I wore my new feather hair clip and a cute outfit and chatted outside in the cool breeze with friends...it was a delight ( Read more... )

i feel good. My Jido is not doing so great, this i know, but what can i say "time keeps on slipping into the future" and there is nothing that can be done to slow it or to change what is out of our hands. I have learned that when one is in a situation that makes you feel powerless you simply have to manipulate things a little, you have to be ( Read more... )

It seems to me that people are afraid of living outside of the small worlds that they build for themselves. It seems to me that I am sometimes afraid of this as well. I think its really too bad though, its really kind of disappointing ( Read more... )

I was a cartoon today. I think that would be quite a lot of fun--just think of it, I could be squished into a pancake and then re-inflate myself by blowing on my thumb!

On another note I am thinking of reading "Tropic of Cancer", have any of you read it? Any thoughts on it? Its for this montrose book club i may join.

but appetite".

For quite some time I have been living a dull, contained life of simplicity. In truth it was pleasant and calm but now it appears that a bull has come and thrust my life in a new direction. I do not know what is to come but I hope that it is a true delight.