Life is so much easier when you don't give a fuck.

I'm not sure if it's because I saw zombieland the other night and I was already having dreams of him or what but recently I've been having dreams that my father is alive and he is sort of a brain dead zombie creature and it's so fucked up I think I've woken up crying a couple times. Oh yeah and I'm all messed up over this one girl I've been seeing ( Read more... )

Here's how this cycle of profound loneliness seems to revolve around and around and around ( Read more... )

My dad died. I'm fucked up now. For a half year, over that, I could have sworn I beat depression and angst and shit like that. I mean I've been happy and whole for as far as I can tell and bam, shits over. Now everythings back. I'm pissed off and shit, I want to start fights, I'm angsty, I can't pay attention. I'd rather not admit it but I ( Read more... )

I never imagined when I was young just how intense or complicated or frightening or amazing life would be. I've spent this summer traveling and seeing shows and friends and meeting people and having the time of my life. I just spent a week falling for the most wonderful girl (for the second time) that I doubt I'll ever be able to be with. Its ( Read more... )

Clayton:

and I'd grab her wrists when she was hitting me

and I'd be like "oh no I got your wrists, I know how much bitches hate getting their wrists grabbed"

I think that was when she head butted me

damn that was some girl!

Being a jerk is easy.

So for anyone that wasn't aware I'd like to announce that my name is Clay, I hold women to unrealistic standards, and I hold my own status somewhere along the lines of a precocious devilish lost boy trickster demagogue semi-demigod.

You know, just for clarification.

Man oh man I am just sick of being so flipping confused all the time. I mean I'm just a million places at once, I'm in the future and in the past and in my head all at once. I think on some general level I know what billy pilgrim felt like when he became unstuck in time because it can be so easy sometimes. And all the while I am left wondering ( Read more... )

Everything in my life just seems to boil down to my future and what I want to do and where I'm going and whether or not I have room in the sidecar for anyone else (and sorry ladies but it looks like a long ride ahead, ha ( Read more... )