Distant lately ja... And somehow all the time now... I am driven by frustration in that seems like a drum that beats hard for true love, but not just any love... A love that I can truly connect with. I am doing such neat things right now through this frustration, but it is so hard to appreciate things while feeling down...and yeah down. If at all ( Read more... )

Once upon a time I was in love and relished the present. I lost myself in to me how great She was. My lover though was never happy with the now and she dreamt of tomorrows with a fierce hope and wondered where it would take her ( Read more... )

My fourth of July was nuts... A neighbor kid that was setting fireworks off with us. He just decided to leave his sparkler in a rosemary bush next to my parents house. He was rather young. The next thing we knew the bush was lit up huge like if it was a giant match head and it was a little crazy... My dad got the normal garden hose on it and it ( Read more... )

A mystery for me of late is that I am finding it so weird how I can start to fall for someone and not even see it coming. Maybe even if I was trying to deny it in my mind, but I still find a way to want or enjoy their company even if it is just on a minuscule level as well. Ack my mind is a in a rut...zzz

My thoughts were once whole with another in love. Now lately have dreamt of the remnants of a distant second...... Where I was lost in somebody else's idea of love.

Living to Love... That was my life. I truly enjoyed loving one person. This all changed because life can be unfortunate. Selfishness came about and fucked away all my blessed dreams that had rocked my soul, but now these dreams lay dormant and almost forgotten because they became rotten. It is hard to accept seeing the one that meant everything to ( Read more... )

I was walking downtown today with my pal looking at bikes for him. And we noticed that a man had gotten hit in the crosswalk. He was in the middle of the intersection near Ubar So he had been flung a ways from the crosswalk. Crazy stuff. He looked totally out of it and practically just gone. Almost like looked like Will Ferrel the way he gets hit ( Read more... )

I miss my love for someone and the day in and day out life i had ( Read more... )

It started young with having to go to church. Now its the day I can't exercise my pain away with my friends. So I think to much.. and miss to much

I recently made a friend with this Girl, or rather Mom from the boxing gym. She is going to fight in the chico fight nights at the gym. Which I really probally won't, but she is. The reason She is fighting is because of her kids I found out. She wants her kids to look up to her as a mom. I found this inspiring because she just went through a ( Read more... )