I think besides my own personal happyness. I think i want a lover down the road that will be honest with me about whatever. For some reason or another i have struck out both times i thought i found true love. Granted i really thought my last lover was it. I really still don't totally understand why we didnt work it out, but life is odd thing, and ( Read more... )

I figured i would promote my roommates show. They are the The Ambling Shambles. I saw them at the coco cafe last Friday, and they rocked it. I was really blown away. They practice upstairs a lot at my house so i hear remnants of it, but they put on a great show. Here is their myspace if your interested, because its their last show for a while or ( Read more... )

I feel like this last month is a blur. From heart break to new beginnings.....I don't even know where to start.. I have lost 30 pounds... in one month. I have been a gym junky of late. All my new friends down at the gym want to me fight in the chico fight night, but i won't... I mean i really have nothing to fight for. I wish did..... I have met so ( Read more... )

You move on, with angst and frustration that trails your everyday thoughts. You learn that an embrace of someone that once meant your world can be dealt with. Even though it isn't easy to combat the idea of letting go. You do, and as time moves it gets slowly the pain is less and less there. Still pain, yes Still confusion, yes. But less and less ( Read more... )

And so the time comes to overcome, and I fall down in thought of what is it come.

I worked in Red Bluff all day in this house that was incredibly smelly. Its like cats and dogs just lived inside and never went out. Basically rebuilding a bathroom great fun... Not really...Then i finally get home after being up on coffee just so i can make the drive home on a crazy windy day. So i decide to take a nap before going to the gym ( Read more... )

I am finding it is hard to find good combinations late at night with less carbos to eat. This is very frustrating for me. Because i know if i am strict to this is will lose more weight. I guess nobody said dieting was fun.. bah

I was road my bike to the park today to go running because the gym wasn't open and its so dam nice out. I ended up not running. Because I found that i need a belt, but that gave me time when i was walking to notice that so many of the blossoms are out. Damn quite pretty..If you get a chance to go to the park this week while the weather is nice do ( Read more... )

So for the second week in a row I danced with the same beautiful Japanese girl. Oh my she was pretty. She has such a cute goofy dance to Her. We talked about what we do and where are trying to go. But in the mix of jumping up and down I had a feeling I couldn't go any farther.. I felt my heart lock down..being frozen, or just inactive like there is ( Read more... )

Well i threw alway practically all my poker research today. It just makes me sad to look at it. I am not sure if that is a good idea or not. I just don't want to look at anything that makes me sad anymore.