why am I the most insecure person in the world? I constantly feel crazy and stupid and ugly. I can logically know that I'm none of those things, but I still feel that way and it makes me tired, so I'm going to bed.

whenever I feel like I'm sinking in to an emotion, good or bad, my heart starts to pound. I get overwhelmed by excitement, sadness, fear. It feels a lot like anxiety. sometimes my heart almosts bursts. whenever I feel like that, I want to run away from it or sleep or cry. I'm wondering if maybe that's not the way to deal with it. It can't be that ( Read more... )

so the show is sold out for this entire weekend. so awesome. we added two shows which is awesome. the crazy part is that the producers of the broadway production came to see the show tonight. they loved it and want to meet with Ron next week. we're all hoping that they'll produce a tour of the show and send us all around the country. I'd quit my ( Read more... )

made out with someone that I wanted to tonight. that's always fun. this guy was a funny choice of make out, but I don't think I can go in to that here ( Read more... )

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Because I can see so many good things in my life. So many supportive and loving friends. My family. My roommate. My dogs. My life...is good. But when I come home on a sunday night and alex isn't here and it's dark and quiet, I just wish there was someone here to snuggle up on the couch and watch the simpsons and kiss and eat dinner. Someone to ( Read more... )

the show is going soooooo well. we are starting to sell out every show, so they are thinking about adding 3 more shows. I love it so much. If I ever do have a boyfriend, they may just hate me for never being able to love them as much as performing. haha. not a bad thing to admit ( Read more... )

I'm currently obsessed with this guy. I'm thinking of working with Natalie and Alex on a play about this theory. It would be about the social and emotional affects of living for 1000 years or more. Pretty insane and amazing stuff.