I spent a long time trying to convince a certain someone that I was the best person for him. I spent a long time trying to be what he said he wanted. I tried to be what he thought was attractive and acted in a way that I thought would make him like me. None of it worked. It was completely futile ( Read more... )

this is how I'm feeling and I'm not the only one ( Read more... )

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and missing some of my friends. I feel like I don't have any right now.

We have been friends since before we became our real selves. I wanted to be a part of your excitement about discovery and learning. I was attracted to your intellegence and even more attracted to you perfect face and body. And now here we are 6 years later. I gave up on trying to make my ideal a reality. After years of telling myself that it could ( Read more... )

In 12 days I will turn 26 years old. I am not afraid of aging still, but I always feel the need to look at my life and figure out exactly what it is that I've accomplished so far. That actually keeps me feeling pretty young to know that there's still a lot to do in life ( Read more... )

my heart is beating out of my chest. "I'm all hope and apprehension."

sometimes I feel like a total fucking idiot for trusting anyone.

Let's say that I liked this guy a lot. I liked him enough to have sex with him. Then he screwed me over and showed what a pyscho douche bag he was. So I make this new guy friend who I don't like in a boyfriend way, but just as a friend. He's fun and we get along really well. And let's just say that The Douche Bag and The New Friend become friends ( Read more... )

When you're happy, days go by quickly and know no bounds. When you become sad or dissapointed, suddenly the days are endless. I'm worried that I see disapointment on the horizon. Either for me or for someone I care very much about. And now the days are going by much slower until the end of february and then I will take another step.

I only ever update when life is sad. words seem to come more easily when you're not happy ( Read more... )