So i officially have only 5 days left here. my mom threw me a birthday party with my favorite dip and dinner :) my extended fam came over. James Jenn and i played Monopoly and James kicked my ass. lol. but only 5 days left. 6 nights. and then im free :) im packed and ready. i have been for weeks. im excited and nervous at the same time. no more ( Read more... )

so my life is officially over. i should just give up now. There is no purpose anymore, no meaning. I received a letter today from financial aid. They just canceled my loan because they think my parents make to much money. And this is regardless of the tons of letters, phone calls, and emails i sent them begging for aid and explaining that the fafsa ( Read more... )

i have to go to florida on friday! DAMNIT! i really want to see my brother but my family drives me CRAZY! its amazing how you can be around a group of people everyday for 18 years of your life and then leave them without any remorse or difficulties except when it involves a little one. This sucks! i was excited to work and visit my bro but then i' ( Read more... )

Almost done! I only have 1 exam left. I am gonna try to find out if i can go home with my grandma tomorrow instead of Friday... but we'll see... otherwise I'm sitting around my dorm staring at a painfully empty room cuz my roommate is moving out tomorrow at 2 and my stuff is all packed and everyone else is leaving tomorrow. So i will be bored... ( Read more... )

Have you ever run into those moments when you look at your life and wonder why? Why isn't anything going right? Why can't you make a difference? Why can't you just take life by the horns and direct it where you want it to go? Lately thats all my life has been. i have no money. i have to quit my job. My car is acting up again. I fucked up my life ( Read more... )

So i have come to the realization today that people of our generation are pussies. I know you guys are probably thinking "what?!" But here's why ( Read more... )

Le sigh.

its a sad life i lead. Its funny. i just can't go more than a few months without screwing something up. maybe i dont deserve to have what i have. maybe they deserve someone better. but what i know is i am absolutely 100% in love but i keep screwing it up. I keep ruining EVERYTHING! I mean first we dated for months and then we broke up a lot becuase ( Read more... )

well im flying in first thing in the morning and im sooooo nervous! Im terrified to start my training. And to meet my new roommate. And to fly on the plane. and to start classes. Man im just sooo nervous but i can't wait to see you guys when i get back! I miss you all sooooo much! See ya soon!