You make me nervous and shy, to the point where I'm uncomfortable being around you. I get panic attacks because of the stress. Yet, I still have this infatuation with you. I crave you even though it's emotionally unhealthy. I do weird things like text you at midnight confessing my infatuation because maybe that would help me be myself around you. ( Read more... )

I hate programming and networking. so much. It only took me two years and a degree to realize this.. It happened tonight when I went to a networking lecture Topher invited me to. 30 minutes into it I just couldn't take it anymore. I did not care about anything that was being talked about. So I left ( Read more... )

I love it here! I'll probably put up an entry tomorrow :D

I just left Phoenix and I'm currently in the air writing this entry to be posted when I land. One of my life goals was just accomplished ( Read more... )

I went clothes shopping by myself today. I don't believe I have ever done that before, in recent memory. It was nice. Before I've always cared what the person with me thinks, but I think my own opinion is sufficient. I stocked up on shorts for summer and I bought a pair of sneakers and nice flip flops. I haven't had a real pair of sneakers since I ( Read more... )

soooo it didn't work out. It had me down for a few days, but I'm well over it. At least she's still a friend. Just because someone has a lot in common with you doesn't mean that it's an instant click. I think the most disappointing thing was that I wasn't going to get to fall in love. I feel like I really want that. But timing is everything, right ( Read more... )

fgdfgdgjhm. So I feel better now. Maybe it was the sleep, or the reassuring message from Lara I woke up to. It never makes any sense!

Great. Just great. Now that I've been on cloud nine it's time for my illogical mood to make a U-turn and take a nose dive into a depressing abyss. Just lovely. There's no reason for me to feel like this. Everything is going great, so while I still have some of my right mind left I will just verify that I am happy. I'm going back to school in less ( Read more... )

I'm going to BYU even earlier than I planned. I'm going to do the Spring term, which starts on April 28th. My last day of classes with UMUC is April 4th, so it works out pretty well. I've decided because it's hard to get a housing contract in the middle of June, so if I can get a yearly contract starting in April, I won't have to pay for somewhere ( Read more... )

So my vision is still the same as two years ago. Thank God. I had an optometry appointment today, since I'm on my last pair of contacts and I needed a new prescription. They had to do this crazy test where they poked my pupil. No matter how hard I tried I could not keep my eye open, it was like my eye would naturally shut and not open. Though I ( Read more... )