Ok so I am weighing in at 58kg tonight. Hopefully less in the morning. I purged this morning after breakfast because I knew I would get too hungry to last until the next day. Then ate some cake, chocolate and 2 crackers. All up 1000cal. More if you include breakfast. But it was one of those purges you just know got pretty much all. Love it when ( Read more... )

Ok so I haven't posted in ages but I'm always lurking around! Currently I am doing okay with my weight loss considering I had a big binge over last weekend and yesterday too. Although I purged yesterday so that was fine. My bmi is currently 19.7, this is in the healthy range. I f-ing HATE the healthy range. I need to lose at least 9kgs by summer. ( Read more... )

Holy fucking shit. I don't know what has happened to me but these past three days I have binged so badly. Don't know what is going on. So disgusting. I have also purged like a maniac each time so I hope that at least hasn't made me gain more than 2 pounds ( Read more... )

Ok so I am now 60kgs. I am getting there, slowly but surely. Have lost 8kgs so far. After 8kgs of weight loss I can now start to see some changes. Won't really notice until I lose 5kg more. Then ultimately 7kg more after that. My BMI is currently 20. How fat and healthy is that ( Read more... )

So I haven't purged in weeks and weeks. This is very good. But my birthday is coming up really soon and I had a thought, I will have been purging for 5 years now. I remember making a stupid pact to myself on my 19th that that was the year I was going to stop. Well that went well! I have lost 11 pounds since starting my new diet in November. That's ( Read more... )

Have been going well with the diet. I always lose more weight if I stop eating by 3pm at the latest then go to bed hungry. I then lay there for hours being too hungry to sleep but by the time morning comes its always worth it. I will be weighing myself once I go back to my Mother's house on Saturday morning. The heaviest I can be is 140 or less. ( Read more... )

Have been going well with my diet. Major fuck up this afternoon though. Had eaten some crackers, tomato, cheese and alcohol. I was planning on stopping there. Then went back to my friends house and the family had bought us hot chips. They even served me a plate which is too cute so I just had to eat them. Of course I was having a stress attack. I ( Read more... )

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Something interesting I always find on these journals is how everyone seems to have boyfriends. Or likes someone enough to talk about them. I wish I had a boyfriend who I loved, or who loved me but I just don't care. All I want is to be thin, and if that means I stay single then so be it.

Life. Am I happy? I'm not not happy but I would know if I was happy wouldn't I? Work is shit. Cannot wait to get away from that place. In 60 days a friend and I are heading off to Europe for 6 weeks. I need to be in the best damn shape of my life. I am going to restrict my calories, try not to purge once but if I mess up it has saved me in the past ( Read more... )