Well it has been nearly two years since I last wrote in this (The damn thing says that I have writers block, woo it’s not lying). That’s a long time to some people, but it has flown by so fast that I barely noticed. I have had 2 cell phones, 4 jobs, 1 cat, 3 boyfriends, 6 lovers, countless arguments with my mother, more packs of cigs then I can ( Read more... )

Still no job, and thinking about moving back to Cali since I have nothing to stay for. Sigh... It's lonely here too. No friends, no nothing. The computer is the only thing that really keeps me company. It's just sad and depressing. Everything here reminds me of Josh and the moments we shared together. It just hurts you know? Meh, Somedays i am okay ( Read more... )

Someone just shoot me in the head please...

Eh I got woken up this morning by Jeff, told me that the phone was for me, asked who it was and he said work. I was just thinking that they were going to ask if I could like work this Saturday. I get on and Jean (the woman that hired me) says "so i hear that you didn't come in for pet care on sunday." I was thinking to myself "not that I didn't, ( Read more... )

You know I have been thinking a lot lately about Josh and Hillary, and just my life in general. I have come to realize, that Hillary is not a bad person. Though she has said some hurtful things about me before without fully knowing me, but that is the past no? Though an apology would be awesome, that's okay. And I am not mad anymore about the whole ( Read more... )

Have you ever felt like your world is falling in on you and you can’t do anything but just stand still and watch as it falls on you? Have you ever felt cheated, used, and hurt so deeply that all you can think about is ending the pain forever?...

I feel this way… and I feel so terribly stupid for ever thinking that I could ever be happy with ( Read more... )

Tomorrow it will have been a month since we parted

And I am still picking up the pieces of my heart

Still missing you

Still wishing for you to come back to me

But I know you make your own decisions, without regret

Your going to do what you want to do

And never look back

Just know that I am still here…

Waiting… and loving you with all that I am…

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I don’t think even half of you read my journal anymore xD

Or you just never comment D,:

Comment Biatches! >: O

My finger hurts like a bitch. It was bitten down to the bone today by a fat ass cat named Dutchess. I can’t move my thumb right now without extreme sore pain. Everyone at work was telling me to go to the hospital. Gah no. I hate ( Read more... )

I can't stop crying... I feel so alone and lost... So empty... I don’t know what to do anymore.

“Precious”

Precious and fragile things
Need special handling
My God what have we done to you
We always tried to share
The tenderest of care
Now look what we have put you through

Things get damaged
Things get broken
I thought we'd manage
But words ( Read more... )