Every time I am even slightly happy someone or something comes along and just ruins it for me.  I feel like the universe is against my happiness sometimes haha.  I mean I have this great guy, my friend situation was going better but now who knows ( Read more... )

Could it get any more confusing? haha I think I have one good thing going for me and that kind of changes... I don't know, I will find that out tonight.  I really am excited to see him... I really hope all goes well.  Then there is the one that blocked me out before but is slowly coming back... ugh I don't know what to do.  I guess it is a funny/ ( Read more... )

Wishes all of this would change

So my friend and I decided that we need to start going out and experiencing new and exciting things.  I am so glad that we have finally come to that realization haha!  Anyway, I am doing really really good lately, cleaned out some skeletons and I am now a new person. :)

Finally talked to him today for the first time in months and months.  Wish I had the courage to say what was really on my mind and what I really wanted to say.

I wish I could tell you all of the things that are eating me up inside.

I need to get out.  Thought I was gonna be able to go to the one place that I could but no I got shot down once again ( Read more... )

I am so sick of being dissapointed by people.  It seems like it is a constant thing now.  I just wish when someone says they are gonna do something, the stick to it and do it ( Read more... )

Sometimes all I want to do is run away.

I don't know what made me think the things I did tonight.   Not a good night/day.   I thought it was supposed to be a good thing what I did but the more I think about it the more I feel like I should have just done what I was supposed to do. Again, what is wrong with me?  Why can't I just make good decisions for myself...  for the poeple around me ( Read more... )