am i finally growing comfortable with myself again? with my life?
i hope so. because i'm sick of feeling lost and out of place. i'm sick of missing happiness. i'm ready to be happy again.

I HATE when you realize that someone who you loved and thought was amazing is really an ass. Really doesn't care at all. That you were fooling yourself the whole time. In love with an illusion. I hate when each day becomes a fight not to cave into your own illusions. Disillusionment hurts so much. First disillusioned by circumstance and then by ( Read more... )

Wow, did I abandon this thing or what ( Read more... )

I feel like.

"a song for our fathers"

by explosions in the sky.

someone help me make sense.

I've just returned from seeing Pride and Prejudice and I wish that I could be Elizabeth Bennet.
Perhaps I'm just a romantic.
Of course I'm just a romantic.
Love confuses me.
Life scares me.
I'm just a little uncertain right now.

Here's a long, not too great story told nice and short:

I got deferred.

So here's to months of anxiety and waiting until April and dreading the uncertainty of my future.

PS. I got into Emmanuel. At least I have my safety. Today's been a day called bittersweet.

i'm stressed out wigging out wishing i could just sit and pull all my snarlballs and rip them out. tomorrow my life changes whether i like it or not.
ahhhhhhh. (etc.)

Oh, I do love snowdays. Very much. Sleeping in until 11:00 and then eating french toast. That is a privalege that I rarely have. And I really needed today to be a snowday. Because not last night, but the night before, I became horribly sick and it was not fun, no not at all. Sarah Soldano never gets sick. So when she does, it is a total enigma, and ( Read more... )

#4 REVISED ( Read more... )

List ten things you want to say to people but know you never will.
- Don't say who they are.
- Disable comments.
- Never discuss it again.

1. Look, I'll admit it, I miss you. I miss the kind of person that I was around you. That smiling from ear to ear and feeling so ecstatically happy and in touch with myself feeling. That "Is he actually ( Read more... )