this hurts like hell.
but maybe when we get this over with,
ill finally be ok.

maybe

i dont even know why i write here anymore ( Read more... )

i just wish that i could get on with my life.
but i feel like im just stuck in that moment,
stuck in that moment of paralyzing anger and betrayal.
that i cant seem to move past.
and im still there.

angry and hurt and alone.

i've never been so hurt by anyone ( Read more... )

so the number one way you dont want to start your day at coachella: throwing up before you even get there. i dont know if i ate a weird breakfast or something, but i felt like crap. not the best way to start out the day ( Read more... )

RAAAGE

update when every bone in my body stops hurting

i feel a lot better about my life,
about love,
about everything.
its all a lot clearer.
and i cant wait to see reo on saturday.
♥

max and schatzi,
thak you. and
i love you both.

for my last post
sometimes when im high i get way too emotional
and say dumb things.
so whatever.

I suppose there isn’t a whole lot that I can say. Not a lot that will actually matter, anyway. I’m trying to look on the bright side of things. Possibly trying too hard. I’m not all too sure what I’m doing with my boyfriend. I don’t know if I am fighting too hard to keep a fire going that has long since been extinguished. Or if I’m just fighting ( Read more... )

that i have this overwhelming need
to tell someone something
but i just cant.
how do you tell someone something when youre afraid of what will happen afterwards?
when all you are is terrified of what it could do to a friendship?
a friendship that you've worked really hard to build?
maybe its better if i just dont say it.
i dont know.