i have to go ( Read more... )

stop trying to make me into someone i'm not ( Read more... )

if you don't say something soon ( Read more... )

i just got a job! a job where i actually get paid pretty good and have to fill out a bunch of paper work with real adult stuff on it. wow maybe i'm actually starting to grow up. i've made the step from 5th grader to almost 7 or 8th. yahhhhhhhhhh ( Read more... )

what if no one ever loves me and i never have kids and all my friends are to busy with their own lives and i die alone, unnoticed by the world and my body is found months after my death. sorry thats just whats on my mind, right now. i'm so self centered. but all the rest of the things i think about i can't put in here. whats the point of lj if you ( Read more... )

i want to say something but i'm lost. i'm confused. i want all these things i can't have. i want to become someone i can never become. i need love that no one can give. i love people but can't show it. no one can help me i'm on my own in my own world. fighting to figure my life out. i wish i could see what people were thinking, i wish people would ( Read more... )

this was a pretty good weekend. i worked at state friday and saturday. it was really fun i got a whole lot of track in. i love track i think it's taking over my life yes! but sad it's over now. then me the nessa say star wars! it was pretty good! not great but good! yes! actually really good. ok maybe great! sorry ( Read more... )

now that track is over i'm in my sad, depressed mood again. i'm falling behind in school i can feel my control slipping away. now i'm back to my never ending decision. should i stay or should i go. i'm starting swim team next week maybe that will help with my sadness. last week i was sure i wanted to stay this week i want to go. but i think i'm ( Read more... )

your back ( Read more... )

for some reason nothing has made me really sad or really mad for like two weeks. it's like i have no emotions. it's starting to scare me.