back in happy land....21 days! :) joy

so FUCKING PISSED

Ahhhhh i've been pulled over twice in the past week and a half!!!!!!! oh the horror! it is really hard to type with my fake nails on..... weird.... at least they don't hurt anymore... the bachlorette party last night went quite well i suppose.... i was extremely nervous about it... first real "grown up" thing i've thrown, it made me very stressed ( Read more... )

Since i last posted something, a few things have happened..... matt and i started talking again. we've had a couple of serious conversations about our relationship and what is going to happen in the future. how we can make things better. what needs to change and what was good all along. He apologized for everything he has done (or not done) to me. ( Read more... )

Exactly a year ago.....whoa......hard to imagine..... doesnt feel like it. Today is weird feeling. its hard to lust about love lost in such an unjust way, but all things happen for a reason i suppose. Some things in my past i regret, but he was never one of them. still isn't. He was someone to learn from, someone who taught me about the harder ( Read more... )

Somewhere Other Than The Night ( Read more... )

Scheduling seems to be the key to existence. If something is not written down in my planner, it does not merit my attention. Actually, I just forget everything unless it is written down. Work is my life. I eat, sleep, work and work out. that is it. period ( Read more... )

"One Of These Days ( Read more... )

oohhh how i burn!!!! I got burned bad while tanning in my backyard saturday. ouch. not wearing a bra today which feels much better. Long day at work so i better get to it. I miss having a life. i need to win the lottery or something so all i'll ever have to do is play. yesss that would be fine.

Its been almost two weeks since i last talked to matt... thats the longest amount of time that I haven't talked with him on the phone at least in the last 8 months. weird. I don't really think he cares that much. he didn't sound all that excited when i talked to him online the other day. I need to stop this. I am extremely busy and its giving me ( Read more... )