well im fucked and im upset.. i looked at the time and realized he still hasnt fuckin called me.. what is wrong with him... i just dont get it.. im tired of the bullshit..

WELL today is almost over with.. been sorta long and boring.. and of course no one has called me so fuck it... Steph said that Jason took Jan home today cuz she was still talkin shit last nite.. lol... ohwell.. u dont just meet some one and act that way.. you just dont do that.. Anyways i guess ill survive.. ive gotten thru everything else so ( Read more... )

His ass never fuckin called me at all... I mean how fuckin rude is that.. so whatever.. im not tryin to call him or anything .. i just give up.. i dunno what to do or what to think.. i dont kno why anything good cant happen.. anyways me and steph went to Jasons house.. and omg there were a few cute guys there.. this one Josh.. OMG>. i so want him ( Read more... )

went to work today.. was a little bit late.. anyways today took forever to drag by.. I called Brian on my first break and he said he wanted to come see me tonite for me to call him when i got off.. well i finally got ahold of him and his fuckin phone died and he hasnt called me back yet.. so whatever i give up... I dont think im ever gonna see him ( Read more... )

Im tired.. my buzz is finally wearing off.. Brian called me this afternoon and told me to call him when i got off work.. well i did and i left a message .. i even called his house... then when i was drunk i called him again and left another message.. so whatever.. He never called me back... I dunno what to think.. hopefully ill hear from him ( Read more... )

I am so bored.. and i have all this energy.. no one to talk to... Me and Brian started losing signal so he said hed call me tomorrow... i asked my oracle book if i would see brian this weekend and it came up on the page yes... so it better not be lying to me or imma be pissed... Anyways didnt do much today... slept, got drew went and ate.. then ( Read more... )

Im up again.. but only cuz i took them again.. cuz im hoping they will help me lose weight.. plus im off work tomorrow so it doesnt matter.. today was ok... got up after like an hour sleep went shopping.. came home called brian while i went and picked up Drew.. Came home did cake and presents then chilled out for a little while before i had to be ( Read more... )

I cant sleep.. I took some pills that i thought would make me tired and i am so wounded up.. its crazy.. ive exercised.. ive typed erin and Brian long ass emails.. ive done all kinds of shit.. and im still awake... its made my mouth so dry ive drank tons of water... one of these pills made me sleepy before so thats why i decided to take 2 ( Read more... )

Its almost Hump Day.. and almost Drew's bday.. anyways today was ok... Brian called me this after noon.. :0) and we talked several times and we got off the phone when i got to work we kept losing signal.. so i called him on my way to work and the signal was pretty clear... Anyways hes in wisconsin right now.. hes sleeping.. im ready to see him.. ( Read more... )

Its been a long day... Brian called me this after noon when i was on my way to pick up drew.. i was happy... then i called him on my break at work.. then he called me right after i got home.. :0) and now i just got off the phone with him.. and imma call him back at 3 :0) anyways Joey called me.. hes now living up here.. he was being so mean to me ( Read more... )