im in such a shitty mood, thats what getting in fight with your parents non stop does to a girl. i cant handle it anymore, im to the point where i want to run away. its like no matter what i do im always not good enough, and i guess since i grew up with that state of mind its made me feel less of myself. i was told it so much that now i say it to ( Read more... )

the pope died, wow thats really sad, i really wanted to go to church today but my moms not letting me out at all today she keeps saying i have loads of work when in fact i have none.i guess ill try to leave but she seems really serious about it. Im gonna update about some pretty serious stuff later on today...

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it kinda blows that spring break is so packed and it blows even more that i only have a month and a half left of school. it blows that my friendships are getting awesome agian because now its like im already gone and to get really close to my friends is gonna hurt really bad, i want everyone to promise me that when i leave you will still call and ( Read more... )

This week is so packed already, but im so happy...

today i slept in till 1, im doing some homework, then im going out with the love of my life alexander berki, mmmm im joking about the love of my life stuff, or am i, hahahahah we fought yesturday about something really gay but i now i know who he wants to be with, and that someone is me so fuck off ( Read more... )

new york was amasing i had so much fun and made myself some best friends, but of course the moment i come back the world starts to shit agian, i didnt get into the other college i tryed out for, its not that big of a deal but it makes me feel like a shitty singer, so im going to florida southern for sure now, its good to know where ill be soon, ( Read more... )

i cant wait for New york ill be gone till monday night and i plan on haveing a great time, im starting to feel really free and hahahhahahaha that Lizet movie we watched in theory class really got to me, hahahahahaha Melissa will know what im talking about,im gonna to be the freaking best composer ever, like Aaron Copland, i really want to write ( Read more... )

im gonna make it up to everyone, my mistakes are ending right now, i need my friends way more and if that means spending less time with alex i think thats something that we both want. i promise everyone that im going to stop feeling sorry for myself and im going to stop makeing everyone feel 2nd, today i relised how much happier we all were at the ( Read more... )

i hit a car today, im going to college in 4 months, i have 2 months to be a kid, and ive lost a lot of friends, right when a girl needs a best friend shes lost them, i think im gonna spend more time in tampa because being with rachel does me good, man i just dont know, im really scared, college, that blows, im not ready, and from what myles tells ( Read more... )

so lately my old friends are coming back into my life. Leon called last night and we talked, aj is talking to me now and Craiger called and i need to call back. all these guys are like my brothers and i miss them like a crazy woman. lifes is good and its finally hitting me that soon ill be an old lady, in college, hott!