I wish I knew what that was supposed to mean, signify

I have true love now for the first time, but my brain still wants me to doubt myself

I just wanna play

im reading willing by scott spencer ( Read more... )

the only thing the makes me stop crying is pondering the koan ( Read more... )

first thoughts upon finding out Ishmael was written in 1993?

i said the words out loud to myself alone in my house

WHAT HAVE I BEEN DOING ALL MY LIFE?

so i can't decide if i find myself poetic, depressing, or entertaining as i look over these entries ( Read more... )

Wow, looking over this I feel so captivated my my old self.
I've been through so much since my last entry but I almost have an entirely different outlook.

I dont really know what to say right now but there will be more to come...

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my life is really really bad right now
nothing turned out how it was supposed to
three guys want me
but i dont know what i want

and what i thought was waiting for me wasn't and never will be and doesn't care

going to israel and greece in may is what im waiting for the most
maybe ill meet a foreigner

everything is good now
im happy with decisions
now its just a waiting game

what have i done??
to everything ive ever had and cherished?
maybe i never learned how to be happy
im full of regret

nothing has ever laid me out this flat

i feel so over this
with the internetz and the tvz
i do neither anymore

the only thing is miss is my kaleigh lover who i havent talked to in forevarr
i love you kaleigh<3<3

i have to work today
ringing in the new year
new assets
party good


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