he said
"Its like when you're a kid playing a game
I was playing one game,
then you came in and wanted to play
but you got to change all the rules
and kept making up new ones without telling me
so neither of us could win

you can't change the rules like that"

...why can't I ever settle down?

Against the walls
Against your rules
Against your skin

Stills from Broke Bitch Mountin'
Director: Cameron Abdo
Writer: Dylan Gravely
Producer: Dylan Gravely
Editor: Matt Gorbachev
Director of Photography: Callie Moore
Production Designer: Rachel Fowler

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3 blocks or 4?
I honestly don't remember.
Pouring rain all the way back to my apartment.

I don't want anything from you.
I love these people.
This place makes me crazy.

From now on though,
I am only utility.

This entry makes no sense.

I wrote this in 2006

I look down to find my face in the dirt.

And it is at this moment that I realize two things.

1. I am where I chose to put myself.
2. I am only a human.

strange how I think that will apply for the rest of my life.

tough and unaffected.
untouchable.

sometimes even I forget that my feelings can be hurt by something.
I never want to let you down again.

One film down.
Shooting another tomorrow and another next weekend.

I feel so productive
and exhausted.
I look so worn down
and haggard.

So good.
So good.

blacked out for the first time ever last night
college is making me neglect my body
...

director of photography for
3 movies in 2 weeks

Broke Bitch Mountin'
sex, blood, gore

Claude + Camera
kid, polaroid, fantasy

A Perfect Opportunity
zombie apocalypse, love story

so, here we go second year
I'll have some interesting things to show when I get home for break...

You called me after he left and walked back in the rain.
We talked until your phone died or until something told us we had gone too far.
Now only you know all of those things about me
and I should be scared as hell but I'm not.