Having a friend in Iraq is pretty fucking scary ( Read more... )

Lately I have felt more stressed than ever ( Read more... )

I need Nikki ( Read more... )

My hair smells stale,
I've been running my hands through it.
They smell stale now too.
I need to shower.
My senses feel heightened lately.
I can see, smell, feel, and taste everything.
My eyes feel heavy.
My mom bought a new shower curtain,
it smells strongly of plastic.
It reminds me of the floats you buy for the pool.
Lately I get the feeling that I'm not ( Read more... )

I like how I always seem to be alone on Valentines Day.
I like how people read messages and DON'T respond.
I like how you call me your best friend, but don't treat me like one.
I like how no matter what I do, she comes in the lead.
I like how you give me shit for drinking, but it's ok for her to get wasted so she "feels better" when she has a wonderful ( Read more... )

...and every time I look at her myspace and see the sweet things you say to her, I get sad and get tears in my eyes.
I wish I had you the way she does...

I wish I could get a straight answer out of you.
When I ask you if you have any feelings for me more than friendship,
you never give a straight response.
Don't be scared to hurt me,
Just know that a ( Read more... )

This past weekend was pretty awesome.
I got a truck on Friday, and then headed to Jacksonville for the weekend.
It was wonderful.
Nikki is wonderful.
You are SO wonderful.

Went to the Zoo saturday and it was perfect.
Bright and sunny but nice and cool.
All the animals were out. We got to hear/see a jaguar roar.
Animals make me happy.
Spent the evening ( Read more... )

I might be going down to Jacksonville next weekend,
Which makes me really happy.
I miss my best friends.
Also, it is my last chance to see him before he goes away,
because I really don't see myself being able to afford going to Texas in March.
I'm looking for a new car, and that will require money, money, money.
Unfortunately I will only get to stay for ( Read more... )

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Dear Life,

I really hate you right now.
Why can't you just give me what I want..what I need..for once.
Everything feels like it is falling apart.
A good friend since 9th grade chose her asshole boyfriend over a 6 year long friendship.
I have to get rid of my dog.
I have zero luck with boys...for some reason they just aren't interested in me. I guess I' ( Read more... )