Apparently, the only way I can eat unwittingly is through inebriation. How healthy of me. The Team Gina concert was relatively fun. By the time Gina Genius and Gina Bling came on, Rose had realized the bartender didn't ID, and she bought me a few drinks. The other acts before Team Gina, aside from Kin, were kind of silly and self-indulgent. I don't ( Read more... )

i feel like my head is off... somewhere in the distance. i feel sort of filled to the brim with an emotional restlessness, stemming from lack of sleep and a faltering immune system. i feel on the brink of bursting into laughter or tears... i am completely unrested and this it what it does-- it makes you subject to any random, extreme display of ( Read more... )

I don't know how I feel about Marisa calling Brooke and telling her about my non-eating, image issues, and sporadic drinking. A breech of privacy? I'm not sure, really. I just know she pulled me into her office to tell me she spoke to Brooke because she knows that those things were difficult for me to mention to her. She wants me to use her, if I ( Read more... )

I think I can, I think I can. I'll think I can make it. I spoke to Marisa today and she apologized profusely for not calling me yesterday and asked with concern if I was alright. We sat down and she gave me some of her own strategies for dealing with the awfulness of night time: a banana, a night-light, and fairytale reading material. She even ( Read more... )

This is what I was able to capture in terms of what I felt directly before I started crying for an hour on the couch at gQ ( Read more... )

Aside from waking up out of breath after seeing imaginary clusters of waterbugs and their children on my wall in front of my face, dreams of being overtaken by the sea again, and overall restlessness from 3 in the morning until about 8:30, things are relatively alright. I was roused from lying down by a phone call from a faraway Ilinca, which was ( Read more... )

I skipped out on Brooke today because I've been sick with a sore throat for two days and I had lost my voice for a few hours this morning, which resulted in my mother leaving her a message for my absence. I was planning on just not showing up and weaving some elaborate lie, but my mother saw me sleeping over the time I would usually wake up to ( Read more... )

Ahhh, I lost weight, I lost weight. Also, my breasts are getting smaller, wee. I don't feel like I'm spiraling out of control anymore because I've developed these specific regimens for my eating and exercise. The meticulousness is more important in the exercising because I do not care so much if I wind up not eating, in that my appetite is ( Read more... )

I couldn't sleep, so I re-wrote the lyrics to "It's the Hard Knock Life ( Read more... )

i'm beginning a new personal research project into uncommon forms of punctuation and typography for new tattoo ideas, which spawned my interest in the book Plumons L'oiseau by Hervé Bazin, in which he proposes points of authority,  points of sarcasm, and points of love.  On a similar note, I am inspired to write a song using punctuation as a basis ( Read more... )