i think of you almost as if wings were commonplace. common days are robbing of my inspiration. if i could reach deep enough into my chest, i could tell you all of my answers, all of my questions. i cant say how hard it is to find any words or air to speak them with. there is nothing to write about, everything is the same, nothing is anything. i ( Read more... )

ive been really out of it all week. every day is gone before i even realize its here. its like if something annoys me enough, i can now convince myself that time is actually going faster. drumline auditions started today. i get my braces off tomorrow, i also audition for trinity battle of the bands tomorrow, as well as tutoring, and a ton of ( Read more... )

i never read anything long, its just annoying. this week is going alright, even though its super busy, and im in a pretty big struggle just to get everything done. ive learned to enjoy things that are special to you, and to not expect your friends to share in that enjoyment; because the truth is, if they dont have the time, they just dont really ( Read more... )

i wish this mattered to you.

i would go crazy without days like today. even school was good today, it was weird. mainly just cause i didnt do anything, ha. almost enough to make you quit everything. theres a good chance ill make snare line next year, which is exciting, cause it could make me so much better. and if not snare, its almost sure that i will then be on bass line. as ( Read more... )

i never really dream much. freud, what an idiot. anyway, everyone says all these things about dreams. how would anyone know? its all a bunch of bull crap. and EVERYONE buys into this stuff and tells it to other people so that they will think theyre smart. smart like sheep.

this music puts me to ease so well. it doesnt really matter. last night i had a panic attack about this week, cause im failing spanish and i have a big test on thursday. like i couldnt breathe, i was like freaking out. ive been thinking too much lately. about people, and how stupid and hypocritical everyone is, its so dumb. sometimes i wish ( Read more... )

every eye is on you, we're waiting to see your every move. you exist everywhere, although sometimes you leave, and im happy while they are sad. but you always come back, and we step into line to hear the latest news. and i know its not as bad as i make it out to be, but its not like its easy, easy for someone like me. i dont want to bother, things ( Read more... )

someone once told me "if anyone tells you anything, its probably bull crap," but im pretty sure he was lying.

i wish i hadnt known about this. now it turns out that im the one that wont be able to make it. this could be the end of an amazing opportunity. i spent so much time this week just to achieve the goal, but every second is waisted now. every second that belongs to each one of us. its my fault that we wont even be able to try, and i have waisted an ( Read more... )