things are considerably better than i thought they'd be a week ago. and i really hope i didn't just jinx myself.

it always sucks when you find out who someone really is, and it's nothing like what you thought they were.

i finally almost have everything paid off, i still owe about $800 on one credit card, and $800 to my mom for all the bills of mine she had to pay while i was away at top model - but working full time graveyard at mcdonalds i'm earning about $1200 a month so those will be paid off in no time. this is really exciting because i'm hoping to go back to ( Read more... )

technically, i guess i can say i'm a model now. i have my first shoot on june 21 for www.piggita.com. wish me luck!

why do people tend to focus on the bad, and ignore the good? and when the good gets bad, they think about all the other times things have been bad and not the times that were amazing and vastly outnumber the bad? i'm not sure if any of this makes sense, but sometimes i feel like i can't be anything but happy. because the minute i show signs of not ( Read more... )

as time goes on, i realize the majority of people are annoying as fuck. honestly, i feel like i was born in the wrong place. maybe if i was born in new york, my 'beauty' would be appreciated, instead of looked down on because i'm not fake. if i was born in germany, it wouldn't annoy me so much to drive on the freeways because everyone would know ( Read more... )

i kind of wish i was a teenager in 1997. i'd be discovering all my favorite bands, and when i'd listen to them for the first time....it'd really be the first time. it'd be their first album, their first show. i'd be with these bands throughout the years, and i wouldn't have to witness their downfalls so soon. i wouldn't have to see the get up kids ( Read more... )

Grimace has a tumor. since this is the third rat of mine to get a tumor, i decided to do some research about the correlation between rats & tumors because there really seems to be one. supposedly it's the number one killer of pet rats, and is a lot more common in females than males. [all my rats have been females, because males smell so bad and ( Read more... )

that make me realize how very few cool people there are in this world, but how very cool those few people really are. to everyone who puts a smile on my face, or just keeps one there, it is much appreciated. if you think i'm too serious, or too anti-social, you really don't know the real me and that's nobody's fault but your own. so keep on ( Read more... )

party at my house. 4th of july. be there. <3