i missed shabbat 1000, but I'm not as dissappointed. I just don't feel like I belong anymore, even though I was the one who planned it last year. But I just dont really feel like I'm a part of the jewish community here anymore. I'm not in a sorority/frat and it's much harder to make Jewish friends. Hope Shabbat 1000 went well ( Read more... )

i just would like to burst out crying, smoke a joint, and then go to sleep, and not set an alarm. i want to come home after class today and clean the kitchen. we've been so busy this week that we're eating out of tupper ware and skillets. i want to do the dishes, put on pajamas and get in bed and sleeeeeeeeeeeepppppp. i'm excited that its ( Read more... )

i'm feeling like i'm a waste. of space, time, oxygen, etc. just a waste right now ( Read more... )

i feel like i'm starting to get sick which sucks. just in time for four midterms ( Read more... )

so work has gotten crazy all of a sudden. freaking ridiculous, i'm completely swamped with meetings and people to call. its great, i'm finally doing something productive ( Read more... )

so little three month update ( Read more... )

i dont know how much longer i can keep waiting for you to say its finally over and we can be friends again. i dont know how much longer i'll be able to hold on, keeping that promise we once made each other, so many years ago. I found your old letters today. I guess i made you that promise, so i'll have to keep waiting. i hope you remember that too ( Read more... )

1.) What's your fav type of colour ( Read more... )

i'm hollow. thats the perfect word. he said it and it just clicked. i'm hollow, and i'm relying and falling back on things i wouldn't usually do. yes, one night doesnt change anything. two nights dont change anything. but i'm hollow and empty and dry.

do you ever just...never mind.

ugh.........

i'm torn ( Read more... )