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i've been gone awhile but now i breath
here i am lying in the dark
with you
in my arms'
on my back
your head on my cheast
as i lay there
my mind wanders
my heart beats ever so slowly
eyes heavy
in the dark
i close my eyes
i drift off
i am now trapped
in a tunnle
in the dark
there is a voice
overbearing
and loud
it scares me
but i know
its me
the other side
that helps
me think
in the dark
there is a glowing ( Read more... ) -
help me devine gods for i need it
i don't know what to do anymore there is way tooo much to even begin but i'm sooo lost in what i need to do and what needs to be done.... help is all i ask how do i let her down how do i tell her she feels more for me more than i feel for her and that all of this was just on mistake for i knew i could never find it and even so thats moving way to ( Read more... ) -
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a weird day so far... i only had 3 hours of sleep but i tell you it was all worth it... spending the morning with the woman i love and vegan waffles and VEGAN BLTS!!!! ah sorry spazed there for a second but it was amazing.. i could have not have asked for a better day.... untilll..... i found out my best friend has hpv.. precancerous cells that ( Read more... ) -
friends
there are so many people out there who are friends.... or say that they are friends.. i'm hearin one thing then another... i hear the fact that one frined is totally fucking up and telling stories behind there back... i don't know what compels me to try and fix the past... and trying to be friends with the old past....but yes i really should ( Read more... ) -
i may be frightened
and i may rely on some people way too much more than others but i am deciding to just let it be and see where life takes us.. it might be we never get together which i hope not or that we don end up together but for now i am just going to try and sit and relax and make some decent friends not some of the crazy people i know now.... and i want my ( Read more... ) -
awaken by a dream
there i am waiting for her... it's her day off that i can finally see her.... i tell her to wear a skirt for me and she agrees... she has no clue where we are going... i take her to the movie theather and purposely buy the oldest movie in the thearter.. We get inside and the theater only has two people and there sitting in the very front... i take ( Read more... ) -
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feeling
dreaming
loving
caring
hoping
trying
am i trying to hard
feeling to much
dreaming to high
loving to much
caring to much
giving to much hope
i don't believe so
i won't believe so
for i won't stop
i can't stop
i love
you'
lol okay so i get made fun of for making a picute with paint on the computer that had mine and her hands... So to top this off i become ( Read more... ) -
trying not to think about it
just trying to do other things so i'm reading christopher pike :-)
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starting to feel it
i can not help it feeling sad depressed there are so many things i could have done differently and i could have at least said goodbye but i didn't and now i just well i hate to say it but i fegret not saying it too her even though i was scared of what happened the night before and i am scared thats why i always tell people be safe or be carful of i ( Read more... ) -
ha ha tonight
i wanted to do and try something different so i dressed in drag i bound my boobs and put on a muscle shirt and did my hair and the whole outfit and i have to say i did good..... i just wish i had a better camera than my shity phone i will try to get the pics up soon though..