Well I don't think that I am going to be writing in this journal anymore. I think I am going to start another one to really get things out because I feel like this isn't working. See you all later!

so I have been crying a lot...my eyes hurt so much! Things have been changing in my life I feel like I am so helpless and I can't do anything to help situations I just want to do something and out of frustration I just balled. I feel like I have no one to run to and that kills me. I really can't wait to just go back and get away. Monday can't ( Read more... )

Well I just pretty much woke up. I woke up to Ashley calling me and she was telling me about her new J-O-B. No mercy for the sleepy! But it's ok because I needed to get up anyways. I remember that Imranay called me this morning but I really don't remember what I said or what he said. He called me because he was heading to work and he heard our ( Read more... )

So I am home and I have been for a while. I am happy to be home but I can't wait to go back. I will be working this summer and I hope that I will be able to get a job at Micky D's. I will be making some good money hopefully. At least it will pay for some stuff while I am at school. I can't wait to go to Beckley next monday and tuesday. It is ( Read more... )

Hmm so it's almost time to go home for 3 and a half months...I will be home hopefully on May 11th. Then I must work, work, work, and work some more. I am kinda happy and kinda sad...that's a really long time to be home. And it seems like it's so far away and I really don't want it to come. But this summer is hopefully going to be good! There ( Read more... )

So life is getting better by the days...and I have a feeling it is gonna get worse here pretty soon because I still haven't started packing...and yet I really need boxes. So I have to get boxes and register for classes still and I have the whole thing of Exams still on my head. ahhh but my personal life is really good though! ahhh I think I am ( Read more... )

So I have been incredibly depressed lately. I don't know whether to just give up or keep trying to fight everyday life. I feel like a zombie just walking around not really knowing what I am doing and I smile to make people not worry. I wanna cut so bad but I promised myself I wouldn't...I promised that I could deal with things better than that ( Read more... )

So today was one of the most crappy days I have ever had...it started in the morning and just went downhill. I was so bitchy for the whole damn day. Everything was getting on my nerves...but now I am ok though. I seem to be good now...I went bowling with Imran, Asif, Kamran, Tanveer, and Irshad. It was 5 guys and one girl...lol! Kinda funny I ( Read more... )

So yesterday was probably the most exciting day I have ever had. When I first got up I took a while but got in the shower. And right as I was about to blow dry my hair Laura comes and knocks at my door and she is like let's go to Macado's so I get ready and call Imran to see if he would like to come with us. But I kinda woke him up. So Laura ( Read more... )

Ok so Heather tries to talk to guys and I got to talking to this particular guy that I was talking to before I dated Junaid and things just didn't work out...some shit happened after I really liked this person and then things got weird and he didn't talk to me I didn't talk to him...well I started dating Junaid after I heard about him liking some ( Read more... )