Therapy yesterday went well. I really like Jen, my therapist. Ive only gone to two my whole life. Her and this woman named laura. I was really nervous starting therapy with jen because things with laura went really down hill. I started to see laura because my friend carrie had gone to her and only had nice things to say. Plus it was a bonus she ( Read more... )

 Surgery is in 10 days and counting. I dont know what kind of feelings i am having right now. Dont get me wrong and think that i am having 2nd thoughts about going through with it. My bank account has already been drained by paying the medical people that needed to be paid. I just know that this is still going to be a long road after teh surgery. ( Read more... )

Bernie...man...she had us drive to new jersery last night to pick up a girl that shes never met in person before cuase she thought she was cute and they have been talking via online. Now i have nothing wrong with chatting people up online...i learned my lesson tho on going out of my way for someone i thought was chill but really wasnt. So it was me ( Read more... )

well i havent updated in a while. So many things are happening to me that i just want to hit the pause button for a minute to catch my breath...but since there is no pause button in life im just sucking it up and dealing with shit.

Last weekend i traveled through new englad (New hampshire and north hampton mass, and boston) so that me and carrie ( Read more... )

I went and hung out with tina last night. Shes my boss and the boss's daughter. Go ahead and make all the jokes about snagging the boss's daughter. its totally not even like that. Shes my age just moved from miami up here to work with her folks when they took over roto rooter. I feel kinda bad that other than the kids she talks to at school she ( Read more... )

 Carrie and i decied the other night we are going to randomly pack our shit up and drive out to maine in hopes that her friends from college are there. Giving her a chance to see them all again and giving me a chance to talk to the person whom my last entry was about. I dont caer if we go up there and shes like fuck off cause thats all i want. Im ( Read more... )

I hate how some people talk. How they can pour their whole entire heart out to you yet in 2 days they tell you they cant do this. Do what? we arent dating...you live almost 7 hours away...i dont even know the town you live in....i havent seen you in over 2 years. What cant you do? talk to me? thats fuckin bullshit.  You cant sit there and drag out ( Read more... )

I hate when things are up in the air. I hate having things always being all talk or not knowing it thats all it is. talk ( Read more... )

So i went to therapy like always and half way through she told me that my surgeon had called her about the letter she had writen me. I started to get a little nervous inside. She wanted to know if it was okay for her to talk to the surgeon. I told her sure as long and she doenst put the breaks on the surgery i have been waiting and saving so long ( Read more... )

I feel like i am losing it. Like all of a sudden my life got so busy that i dont know what to do with myself. i feel like i am losing my freakin mind. I cant remember what i have going on in the next few days yet i know i do. Take tomorrow for instance: 7am the dog will bark to be let out to go potty
                  10am shower and get ready
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