I feel like im losing my mind. I try to not let things get to my head, try not to worry 24/7 about things that i know i shouldnt worry so much about. But i do. i cant help it. I hate when someone tells  me they will call me back and they dont. Espically if its someone who at one point meant so much to me. I decided as my own part of therapy to ( Read more... )

There is probably no better time to work on your self than when in the midst of a large change.  Have you ever come to a point in your life where you no longer felt you were living it?  It was as if you had hidden behind masks or dreams so well that you were now only the silent observer?  That is the best way I can describe my current state of ( Read more... )

So my puppy (charlie) is doing well..still trying to readjust to the new place and environment...he gets really nervous around large groups of people but he deff knows who i am. When wlaking hes so afraid im going somewhere without him he  weaves in and out of my legs...i just know one of these days hes gonna trip me and im gonna fall flat on my ( Read more... )

So I went to visit my ex last night...I feel like me and her are drifting apart and Im going to all of a sudden fall into the caterogy of people she used to talk too...And honestly I dont want that. I have never wanted that with any of the past girls ive dated and i certantly dont want it with her. So after not being able to get ahold of her for 7 ( Read more... )

So i found this super cute adorable cocker spaniel in the buff (tanish) color like i used to have a stuffed animal growing up. Ive been emailing back and forth between the kennel/breeder and my mom who has the pay pal account about setting up a time to pay them and when they would deliver the puppy. It will have to be shipped since we are half a ( Read more... )

The hunt for a new dog continues. Its kinda dissappointing to know that i at one point had a dog and i really liked the dog and now im back to nothing. Its like nothing can ever just be easy for me. Finding a job was hard because i got jerked around by a company for a few months, my whole gender issues, troubles with girlfreinds and friends, and ( Read more... )

Im really upset because i have to take the dog back in a matter of a half hour....hes so fuckin cute but i guess hes also really really sick. The vet told me he might not get better and i dont want to buy a dog that might never get better. I dont even know who is going to be paying the vet bill me or my friends mom who i got the dog from. Ive had ( Read more... )

I brought up to mom last night what i had talked over with the therapist. How she will write me my letter for surgery in a little while after we meet a little bit more and that i should start to think about hormones becuase she could help me start in the next 3-4 months. I never had anyone tell me that. But as scared as i am about T i know that i ( Read more... )

Its funny to me to run into kids i used to go to high school with and pretty much have grown up with since kindergarden leave huge things out in converstations we have about what we are up to now-a-days. I work 2 houses down from my friends house and so his step dad came over to talk to me and after work i went over to talk to his mom to see how ( Read more... )

I saw britt last night...its always nice to acutally get to see her and hang out with her. Just to make sure everything with her is okay..i know she struggles with alot of stuff that i dont know anything about and have nothing to do with me...it worries me but i know i cant save her. I can only be here for her as much as i can. With her initials ( Read more... )