Hey, just got back from a long busy night at work. Mike called, and we had a long long talk about him going to NY.. I'm pretty sure he's still going to go, which is the best idea, but being away from eachother is soo hard! I hope that everything works out, and I hope my mom stops being such a big BITCH, she needs to get a man or a study group.. lol ( Read more... )

hey, lately I've been reflecting a lot. I'm not sure if I've come to any conclutions or if any of it even makes sence. I've just been thinking a lot about Mike, and how he's moving away at the end of the summer. I'm closer to him than I am most people. It feels like I've traded my mother in for him. And that feels ok. Is that bad? I hate my mom so ( Read more... )

I called in sick to work this morning- for tonight. Today is Mike and my 6 month anaversary! And it's a friday night... the same day of the week that he asked me out. I love him so much. But lately, we seam to really get on eachothers nerves.. or he just gets on mine... lol I hope I get to see him today, I wasn't lieing when I said I was sick ( Read more... )

was on the Brattleboro Reformer cover today. Big story on the grant that I wrote and 3 pics, 2 of which were in color! :-p I'm pretty happy about that ( Read more... )

It kinda scares me when I think- in two years.. where will I be headed?? I dont know what I want to do after highschool for sure, and I have plans to move out with Mike cause hes moving to New York in August.. which is a major stresser right now cause, well- long distance relationships scare me to be honost. But we're really gonna try to make it ( Read more... )

I had a really disturbing dream last night. I was with a Mairilyn Manson type of guy, and he seduced me. We ended up having sex but right in the middle of it I remember part of reality, and I remembered that I had a boyfriend who I loved named Mike, and I freaked out. But I couldn't let "Mairilyn Manson Man" know or else he would kill me. So I had ( Read more... )

Been getting into a l lot of fights with my mom lately. Except for today, were we got along just fine which was odd. She asked me the other day if I had started to have sex with Mike. I was like.. o.. m...g... lol and when I told her I wasn't she started to breath again and was very very relieved. Parents get to fucking uptight about everything ( Read more... )

IM FUCKING PISSED OFF AT MIKE RIGHT NOW I JUST WROTE WHY AND IT DELETED ON ME. HE'S BEING SO STUPID AND I'M SO MAD RIGHT NOW I WANT TO JUST PUNCH SOMEONES FACE IN, WHAT THE FUCK!

Lots of new things going on this week. Had first day of Tennis today, that's Mondays and Fridays. Then I have the first Self Defense classes going on, on Tuesday for 5 weeks ( which I wrote the grant for ) and on Wednesday's I have belly dancing classes for an hour and 1/2 for 6 weeks- starting this wednesday. And Then I have prom on Sat. and ( Read more... )

Long day yesterday, I passed out in Bio class for 4 minutes. I remember blacking out, and then saying to Heather that I felt like I was gonna faint. And then the next thing I know Im sitting on a stool I can hear Mr.Paytis really far away asking if I can hear him, but I can't respond no matter how hard I try, I might of gotten a "mmm" or something ( Read more... )