Do you ever just feel like you have been trying to hard, and that you should just relax and stop being such a control freak? I feel like I'm loosing control. And I'm just sitting here, watching something beggin to happen, my biggest fear, and there is nothing I can do about it. It's not a good space to be in. I wish I could just lighten up about ( Read more... )

Just got my internet conection set up all by myself in the new apartment. I'm eating lots of chocolate cause I'm really nervous about stuff. Which prob. isn't a good idea cause I have to fit into a prom dress in a couple weeks.

Had a weird lil crying jag last night cause I miss Mike so much.. I might get to see him today, I miss him so much, when you're away from someone you really relise how much they mean to you... But I miss him so much, I feel physically ill.. I guess it's good to love this deeply, but it's a pain in the but at the same time. I'll just be happy if I ( Read more... )

Talked to Mike today.. it didn't sound like he missed me as much as I miss him. Which totally sucks ass ( Read more... )

Feeling kinda sad.. I just talked to Mike, so you'd think I'd be happy. But I'm not.. I miss him a lot, and he's in NYC having fun, and I'm here.. in Vt.. YAY! not.. It's just irritating.. idk.. I'm glad he's with his dad having fun and all, but I didnt get to see him at all over Vacation, and we are only gonna have sat. and sunday to hang out.. ( Read more... )

I miss Mike so much ( Read more... )

We have basically totally moved into the new apartment, Im at the old apartment right now though cause the new apartment doesnt have the internet or a phone yet. And I haven't talked to Mike is 24 hours, and I need to talk to him. I miss him so much, it's unreal, and It kinda makes me irritable and sad.. but he'll be back thursday, and I do have ( Read more... )

We're in the middle of moving! Tomorrow is basically the last day, but my mom will be at the old apt. all month sorting her paper work and her things. I can't wait until I get my new room and settled in. I miss Mike soooo much, he's in NYC for a whole week! So I'm trying to keep myself busy and not think about it. I got some new clothes, and I'm ( Read more... )

I know that I love Mike..
But right now, I can't think of to many people that I hate more at this moment...
and I just want to remember how much he PISSED THE FUCK OUT OF ME sometimes.. so I don't make any stupid mistakes..

It really sucks when you let someone in.. and then they violate your trust. It makes you never ever want to trust anyone again. I'm really angry right now.. soo soo angry.. and I have to decide wheather or not I want to take this person completely out of my life, or give them one more chance.. basically this person has gone around telling my ( Read more... )