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I fully await the moment my parents are dead and I have alienated all my friends so I can kill myself with a clean heart. All those who will be left will just calmly remark "oh that is sad." And go about their lives. I will strive to never cause pain... even in my death.
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Followed to the end.... made it out intact
Another heart break, another couple years waisted. What's it matter. Here I am again. Reading back through these... I ask myself why I was so stupid... why when someone actually makes motion towards me I melt. Such bullshit... it's not fair that I have been gifted with a weak heart. I should have known, I should have not gone down this road, not ( Read more... ) -
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Sometimes I just want to be a snowflake, dancing on the winter winds. Adrift in the stillness of the night. -
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I'm broken... no more will to move. to hope for anything. crushed. I hate everything..... just let me sleep endless.
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I don’t know if I’m trying to find meaning where there isn’t any, just because I need it. But I have been reading the latest Dresden Files, and I feel for Molly, feel like Molly. I don’t know if I’m taking my latest experiences too far or just using her as a model, or even justification for the road I’m choosing to walk down now.
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God damn does loneliness hurts, and it upsets me that no matter how much logic I throw at it, it still is so very painful. I am upset at the fact that I’m at my happiest with someone else, I should be able to do all this on my own, but at the end of the day, loneliness hurts ( Read more... ) -
Here’s to Hoping it’s Just the Flu.
I sit here staring at his skype name, hoping that I’ll come up with something to talk about so I can contact him. I feel silly and awkward, my head swims and my stomach twists. Love sick. Never knew what that really meant until today. The Disney song “I won’t say I’m in love” plays on repeat in my head, a constant reminder that things are ( Read more... ) -
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Bah... I can't get notes to work so I'll just post this here until I can find out how to put it on my own facebook ( Read more... ) -
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When ever I feel like posting here it's always about something bad or upsetting, and usually I stop myself cause no one would want to read about vague unrest, but I really just need to get somethings off my chest and out there. So here is goes, read if you want but you really don't have to. ( Vague Unrest ) -
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Gah, it's so cold outside, and I have nothing to really do here at the office save for answering phones. No schools are coming in, mostly cause they get out this week and have already been out of school for a day. Today is both my Monday and my Friday, and I am extremely sleepy. I am so happy that the semester is over and I don't have worry about ( Read more... )