Wow, it is always a world wind with me. So I got a good job working as a manager at a storage place in Huntington beach. it is cool. only bad part is that i have to work 6 days a week cause they don't pay me enough. managed with money and my tax return to get an apartment with Michael in garden grove so at least we have a place to be. It is a ( Read more... )

so still 6 days and counting and I wonder what will happen..I got jealous of his friend from the lodge because I felt that he was ignoring me. he says he wasn't and he is probably right but she is like all over him when we are there and she looks at me like a rival and I just want to smack her and say MINE. but I can't. I am probably totally out of ( Read more... )

So I get to see my little one today and was able to take her to see santa and tell him what she wanted for christmas but I know that I will not be able to see her for christmas and that bums me out. Unemployment is yanking my chain like crazy and I don't know when I will get that and mike is breathing down my neck to find a job to help and god I am ( Read more... )

Is it so very wrong to want to get married to someone that you love. I know that I love him and though I can't always stand some of the shit that he does I still do want to marry him. He alternates from get you life together and we will see to you need a better guy and its not me...can't I ever have a normal healthy realationship with a man.Someone ( Read more... )

Ok so maybe not that outrageous but enough that I am fried. I only work 2 days a week and it barely helps. Michael alternates between being really loving and being a dick but that is not anything new at all. He just disowned his daughters so no more fun trips to san diego unless we go see nathan or go to the nude beach(which is fun). I need a ( Read more... )

A Poem that I wrote to express how I feel when someone that I know(m)accuses me without just cause.I wrote it last week...things have changed since then somewhat ( Read more... )

Well two more days until the big court date...I am kind of shivering in my boots because I want everything to go well. I have stupid therapy today and I hate that I have to go there but i will do it because they want me to and because I want melissa back. I miss my munchkin so much that it hurts. well we were hanging out last night and he started ( Read more... )

So I lied and totally and utterly got caught. I don't suggest it ever and if you are going to DON'T GET CAUGHT. my boyfriend was the one and he was mad. Then he forgave me but now he does this thing were sometimes he is really distant like last night when we went to sleep and sometimes he is really into being with me like before(earlier that day ( Read more... )

still have two courts to deal with next month and i hate that more than anything. mike is complaining that his whole body hurts but he wont go to a doctor and that worrys me..my period is totally late and I need to buy a preg test to see and i have a slight headache this morning which is the only thing that i truly think means nothing oh and i have ( Read more... )

So I go to court last friday and sit there for like 2 hours and my lawyer comes in and tells me they are going to move my case to a different court so that is good but that we also have to keep the trial date for the 30th just in case. I met with an investigatior yesterday and they are on my side and they think that we can win this thing. my monthy ( Read more... )