i hate the way you talk
your smell   your clothes    your smile   your laugh
i hate when you only have one thing to say to me
and then say nothing so that i leave
i hate how you think i'm just trouble
i hate how youre just one big act
i hate how i can't seem to get through to you

i hate how all the wrong people think i'm talking about them right now
i hate ( Read more... )

oh man. king richards fair with selli (c) equals one hell of a day.  i got a tarot card reading.  it was weird, cause she said things that weren't general, or that everyone went through.  she talked about the sleeping problems that i got over. and that someone i know is going to have a baby, or there will be news of one.  she talked about my ( Read more... )

well, maybe now it'll get better. i can only hope. "the only things we are certain of are taxes and death."  i don't really have a plan now.  i've just been living life day by day, and not ever thinking ahead as to what could or will happen next.  i really want it now, so much more than last time.  but you don't always get what you want, and i know ( Read more... )

i have so many words waiting to just come flying out of me.  that one entry wasn't enough, but there's no way i can write everything i want without making it obvious of who its about.  i need someone i can vent with. i have them, but i need just one who'll never get bored of my problems, who will never turn their back on me when i'm at the lowest ( Read more... )

i'm expecting everything to be like last year.  it felt like the year past by without me, like i wasn't even there, i can't explain the feeling anymore than that.  expectations run my life now.  i expect him to be a creep, i expect myself to try and fail, i expect to go through this year without even thinking about my future, i expected to change ( Read more... )

wow. its already september. school is fine, but only after i got my schedule fixed. my classes are good, for the most part, and i'm sure i wont do too bad on the mcas (which i'm totally scared about ( Read more... )

ive been overly tired all week ( Read more... )

" you don't see me. you don't feel me like i feel you
call your number, i cannot get through
i keep telling myself, things will work out in the end
when i reach out, i don't find your hand.
were they wasted words, or did they mean a thing?
i feel so in between.
some day, i just keep pretending
that you'll stay, dreaming of a different ending,
i wanna hold ( Read more... )

hahaha the pug on "men in black 2" is singing
"i will survive"
i'm wicked excited for school
i dont know why
i still need to buy things
anyone want to shop with me?
k thanks.
i update too much
deal.
oh man oh man.
commercials these days are exciting.
okay.
i'm done.

looking back on the summer
i noticed that i hung out more with jess
than almost anyone else
and i've only been friends with her for maybe 1 or 2 months.
good timeeeesss

i really want to do something big and fun to end the summer with
i was supposed to go to plymouth on friday
but then my plans changed
it depends if i'm doing anything.

hmm...and i have to ( Read more... )