the home hasn't been all its supposed to be...my mom is back from kentucky and living with us...four people in that place is way to many...lucky i'm not there often...and i can't want her to move out with the man she married because that would make me a monster...so i am stuck...i just want to get away for a little bit and see the beautiful things ( Read more... )

so my birthday has come and gone...spent it in indiana which was fun...got to buy the digital camera that i wanted...just waiting for the battery to charge...i am going to take so many useless pictures and not know how to operate it but i just want to play...i missed my animals while i was gone and mya dumped all the food that i left her so she ( Read more... )

"just because some of us can read and write and do a litte math, that doesn't mean we deserve to conquer the universe." vonnegut ( Read more... )

my dad has always been stupid whether it has been with drugs or alcohol. he has been running from the law for most of my life. it has always been pretty small things but they add up over the years. now an illegal right turn may send him away for years. i just don't know what to feel because it has always been there. there was always this ( Read more... )

got to stop thinking...just have to let go...keep silent...there is nothing i can do, it will either happen or not...i can't sit here and worry about maybes...just need to stop thinking and replaying it in my mind...i have to live life in the moment...when it gets there then i will deal

went to the wave pool today...it was good times...i feel kissed by the sun...thats probably a bad thing, i'll wake up tomorrow with a malignant tumor on my nose...so much for beauty...been thinking, but i do that lots...i am good at the planning... it is the acting where i lack confidence...i really think that the time to let go is coming...that i ( Read more... )

i've had alot of time to think about life...and its stagnent quality...the things i wouldn't change for the world...my friends and how much i love them...the people that when they leave me it will kill me...i hate thinking about the future and knowing most of you won't be there...i don't want to think about life without you...how some of you are ( Read more... )

august is my very favorite month...finally went to the beach, it was sort of spur of the moment and only me and matt went...but it was beautiful out yesterday...11 more days and i get my license back and 25 more days until my birthday...still don't know how to feel about that but i like getting stuff...i am hoping for a digital camera...anyone that ( Read more... )

the past week has just been well great...going up to the u.p. with steve and seeing the falls and playing in them again just like i was little was refreshing...driving real fast to get to the dunes so we could watch the sunset was just hilarious...all the ridiculous top five questions, like what is you top five, top five...just watching the sky ( Read more... )

where did i go wrong...did it really start that long ago? yeah ( Read more... )