I am entirely exhausted-my whole body just wants to collapse. I’m so miserably tired. I can’t handle everything that is happening, it’s all too much. For 2 months straight, I’ve been getting shit on. It’s very smelly. Won’t it ever going to stop? Maybe it will when I go back to Kalamazoo. But I don’t know how living in an apartment alone, not ( Read more... )

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"to realize that there are some men who like a girl as a companion in mind as well as body, and want to take picnics in the sunlight instead of parking on a dark road at midnight after an evening of sexual stimulation while walking around a crowded dance floor and embracing breast to breast, stomach to stomach..."

something needs to change.

October usually goes so slow for me. I usually can't wait for it to be over with.

but for once, the excitement is back.

I love fall.

.again.

fall leaves.halloween.pumpkins.my birthday. cider.

Yes, it’s still there. But I’m finally ok. I’m ok.

The anger and hate is gone. I’m done. Its over.

It's finally not meaningless anymore. and that is the greatest ( Read more... )

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my apartment = amazing.

I am in love.

come visit me!

Thursday September 22 my life will be complete.

Beck is coming to the state theatre!

My art therapy class is amazing. Glen Arbor is so beautiful - as well as the campus. My dorm room is right on the lake, completely surrounded by picturesque trees, with a calmly flowing river running through it. It’s truly peaceful here. It’s breathtaking.

I got an hour long Swedish massage = marvelous. We do a lot of guided imagery, group ( Read more... )

Its weird finding out someone likes you, when you thought everybody hated you. and for once in my life I questioned my thoughts. Maybe everyone doesn't hate me. Maybe I am an okay person. Maybe I just wanted everyone to hate me, so I could hate them back. I've had all this anger built up for so long, for what? Now I find out it was all for nothing ( Read more... )