what made today special. i don't understand my life or anything that revolves around it. he asked me out on a date again, after almost 7 years. later tonight he tells me he loves me and he misses me and that he is sorry. what the hell happened to my day!!! i know, most people don't complain about getting attention from the opposite sex. i am an ( Read more... )

"I AM SORRY FOR HURTING U"

thats what he said, I don't know what to say to that. I forgive him for hurting me in general, but not the specifics. At least not really. He hurt me in ways that no one ever has and I don't know how to deal with it besides not dealing with it. I don't want to hurt from the outside in. Its so much easier for me from the ( Read more... )

HOME AGAIN!!!!  yay!!

I don't understand.
Is this God's way of testing me? I don't like it. I used to not care, but the more I think about it the more it bothers me. Its not because of the past, but because in my stupid head that makes me not good enough. I know it doesn't but I have to keep asking God for peace of mind and heart. I know the truth, but its hard to ( Read more... )

doesn't like this feeling!

I want to be enough. I want to be the only one. I want to be all. I'm not selfish, I'm just right.
I want to be believed, believed in, and trusted.

How do you deal with something that you have no clue how to handle? I cannot talk to anyone about this and right now I don't even know how to talk to the person i need to. I am scared to death that we will never be the same again. I should say something but I don't know the right way to say it. I feel like i am in a very bad dream and can't wake up ( Read more... )

Its a new year. I have new hopes, new dreams, new love, new feelings, and new goals. I have no resolutions, no regret, no anger, and no sadness. This year is going to be a great one no matter what. I am determined to LIVE life. I have always tried to live life as best I could, but now it is going ot be different. I am going to dream bigger than I ( Read more... )

LaChelle is happy!!!

i hate people and they're stupid drama