so this weekend was really long. 
on saturday, i moved to my new room in placentia all day until i went to work from 7 to 11pm.
today i went to work from 7:45am-12:40. after that went to a play with some work friends, it was called Take Me Out and i was about a baseball player who comes out of the closet and the events following that. it was actually ( Read more... )

so i've been thinking about it and realized that i don't really ever make one. and i've decided that i'm okay with this. i just keep my goal as becoming (& staying) that person that i want to be. i find that this is working for me so far. just some thoughts.

(reading back this... it doesn't seem to make much sense, i don't know why, i think it's ( Read more... )

so i have realized recently that turning 20 does actually mean a lot to me ( Read more... )

what the fuck is this i didn't do anything. we haven't talked extensively since the new symester began and now shes saying "it's not like i don't ever want to speak to you again, just not on a daily basis." and she won't even agree to sit down and talk to me about this. you know what, fuck this friendship! it's a load of fucking bullshit anyways, ( Read more... )

i'm so tired of all this ( Read more... )

i am truly going to enjoy christmas this year. thank you to everyone who has contributed to it, not just with gifts but with the love you give me.

Hand in My Pocket (acoustic version)
  Alanis Morissette
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right now i'm feeling a little bit better than i have in the past few weeks. 
i was reminded earlier today that this journey that i'm going through right now will only make me a stronger, better person.
i also realized that i should just be proud of myself for still struggling, b/c that means i still have the strength to fight for what i want.
i will  ( Read more... )

i want to go to Humboldt State University.
and eventually join the Peace Corps.

i need to scream, cry, or vomit,
just something as a release.
but all that happens is my chest just tightens a little more than normal
and i find myself doing some breathing exercises.
so much responsibility that i can't even handle it.

my world seems to slowly crumble.
i just keep running around putting poles up
 so that the sky doesn't crush me.

there's ( Read more... )