ive given up. im drowning and im not even reaching out hoping that someone will catch me. im not even sure if i want anyone to. im afraid and i cant breathe and i dont know what to do anymore.

dreams come true in the weirdest of ways. sometimes failing to give you what you thought you wanted but instead giving you everything you never knew you needed. its actually happening and i have no words to actually describe it. all i can say is that i never dreamed that it would turn out like this. i never pictured things falling so perfectly ( Read more... )

reality is hard to swallow when so much is thrown at you all at once. so no regrets, right?

You have no idea what you do to me, you can make me feel more emotions in one second then I would normally feel in one year ( Read more... )

what in the hell is going on and what in god's name am i doing???

death is such a sucky part of life. it sucks the most having to watch it unfold before your eyes causing someone who has always been the strongest person that you know to turn into a ghost of who they used to be. it sucks when that person just happens to be the only person in the entire world who actually gets you even though there are almost a ( Read more... )

in an attempt to procrastinate the completion of my first round of papers, i ended up watching, i think it came to seven movies. i completely achieved nothing that i set i set out to do today, and yet i accomplished exactly what i needed to. oddly, i was just in some funky mood and i didn't realize it until now, but every movie that i watched had ( Read more... )

somewhere in the pain, between the agony and prayer, lies hope- i think i'm finally starting to see the hope again. so, maybe, there still is something out there; i suppose that's the whole point of hope though...

they're over now for good... and its so sad because i'm losing a sister and watching both of them in so much pain and i don't know what to say or do it just hurts me so two people that i love with all my heart hurting so deeply... it stinks when you have to grow and life becomes more complicated...

ugghhhh... i've got to get it together. if not for my future, including my college one, then for myself. for my own personal well-being and sanity ( Read more... )